Monday, December 24, 2007

Lessons being learned...

So my mom has been getting after me because I haven't written much in my blog for almost a month now. It's been mainly because most of the things I have been experiencing have been hard to put into words. For the past month I have been reflecting on the past year. I do this every year, but since God has been teaching me a lot in the area of treating others the way I want to be treated...I have found a lot of areas that need to be surrendered to Him and need to have Him control.

Last Sunday during Sunday school (December 16th), was our first class going through the book "Facing Your Giants" by Max Lucado. We chose to do this book because several of us feel that we have a lot of obstacles in our lives that we have allowed to consume our thoughts and patterns of life. We need to retrain our thinking and remember where our strength to fight the daily battles we come into contact. That morning, one of the members of the class shared with us what she had been struggling with...and how she feels we need to really look at our lives and ask God where He wants us to go. She had surrendered her life to full-time ministry, yet she felt she had not been living to her fullest potential. So that class got me thinking about things in my life. Areas where I may not be living to my full potential. That evening, three of us went out and really had a conversation. She revealed a few things that she saw where we could begin to surrender. One of the things she said she was struggling with was gossip. When she mentioned that area I realized I have a problem in that too. We cover it up as prayer requests, but really it's just gossip. The interesting thing was we were tested with it that very evening. Someone made a comment and I asked the question, "What happened?" The person was about ready to answer it, and I said, "wait! I don't need to know. Don't tell me." That evening after being with the girls, I began to seek God about how I can stop this habit. In high school a girl came up to me once and said, "why don't you say anything bad about anybody?" We had just had a conversation about a person and I didn't say anything (good or bad). I told her the reason was because that person had never done anything to me to cause me to say bad things about them. What I realized now was that I just didn't say anything negative about people. Back then I didn't realize what a great trait this was...and how quickly and easily it is to get into the habit of talking about people. So God shared with me that night to begin again. Begin to not speak negative things about others. It's been tough and I have had a few situations where I have had to ask the person I was speaking to ... to forgive me for saying something negative about a person. It's been an interesting lesson...but it goes with the main lesson that God has been teaching me..."Treat others the way I want to be treated."

For the year 2008...I have made a goal to "Honor God with my actions and attitude." This goal is how I have come up with the new resolutions for this year. You've heard the statement "for every cause there is an effect." So what I was trying to fix was the effects responding to the actually cause. Now I'm trying to fix the cause of the problems.

I've been seeing progress too. A friendship has been restored due to this new way of thinking. God is also answering many prayers I have been praying. I have been asking for boldness in our group. It's hard to take a stand when the crowd is doing something else, but I believe God is omniscient, and if I've got Him on my side...Nothing is impossible with Him.

Hope this is what you wanted momma...LOL!!! Merry Christmas to you all who read this.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Family time...

I really enjoy when my family comes to visit...but something I really like is when one set of each family gets to stay with us. For instances...sometimes my brother Paul and his family come around Easter and no one else is here, so I get to hang out with Chels and David.'s been awhile since this has happened, that Susan will bring Micah and Karis to visit while my brother David is at the magic conference. sister Mary and her family have gotten the opportunity to stay for a little while after the rest of the family has left. Michael, Maddie and Marc are here...and they are such a blast. Maddie has been an amazing girl and has been on a mission ... mission: organization...that is. She's amazing. I tell you I think they need to move closer so I can have her keep me in line. She's done an amazing work in my room.

Today, I had to work in wasn't something I was enjoying at first...mainly because I feel so out of place there. I really like it at Flatwoods, and feel like I have a place there. I missed working with Bryan and Crystal just didn't seem like I was where I needed to be. Anyway...I should be back in Flatwoods tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be there the rest of the week.

Tonight, I met my friend Ginger for dinner. She had plans that cancelled and I had called her...I don't know what prompted me to call her, but she and I hadn't hung out alone in awhile and I thought I'd give her a call...she suggested we have dinner we went to Peddlers'. Then headed to church for me to get the mail and check a couple of things for Cheryl. Sara and her mom were there and we got to see them for a bit. It was really nice to catch up with Sara again. I think she was happy that I had brought Ginger with me. It seems that God is really working in the lives of those in my core group. We talked about that tonight and how we have to be careful not to allow distractions to get us off focus of God and what He wants.

Tomorrow is Wednesday...I've got church that night. I usually end up going to church right after work...and get some cleaning done. We have choir practice after church. Be praying for our cantata...we have A LOT of work to do with it.

That's all for now.

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Buckeye Christmas has not died...yet

Praise the Lord! I was worried that this was going to be the last year for Buckeye Christmas. I know that the reason for our celebration is not to get gifts, but I enjoy buying the gift I choose for the person who's name I drew the previous year. I'm really thankful for the name I drew this year...I'm looking forward to finding the gift to give them next year.

This weekend has been very fun for me. I got to see my family together. We had a blast playing a game we played when I was little called "Rhythm." We also learned a new game my sister Mary's family plays called "Mafia." That was a lot of fun. I'm looking forward to playing that with my group of friends...but we will have to make sure there are more than just the core group of it is more fun playing with a group of people.

I have to head back to work tomorrow. I'm dreading it a my sister Mary and her family are still here and I would love to be able to spend a lot of time at home with them than at work.

I've had made some moves into a new direction. More on that in future blogs possibly. I just really believe that God is working in my life, and a lot of the events that have occurred in the past few weeks have been guiding me in a new direction. It's scary, but I believe that if I continue to trust that He's in control...I don't have to fear about changes.

I'm back to work tomorrow. I'm not sure how the day will be, but it may be crazy a little since we were closed after Wednesday.

Sunday, November 18, 2007

In Everything Give Thanks...'s that time of year again...when I look back and begin to evaluate my life for the year. I do this in November mainly because of Thanksgiving and looking back at those things for which I'm thankful. It's been quite an interesting year for me. Last year at this time, I had just begun working a second job part-time (which actually felt like full time). Skeetos Pizza...yes, I worked there 4 to 5 days a week...mostly 5 days. I hardly got to see my friends because of the work first on my list this year is my new second job as CHURCH JANITOR. This past February the position of church janitor came open. I applied...and was accepted. I got into the routine pretty easily...however my friends laugh at me sometimes when I bend over to pick something off the floor. They call it OCD...I call it doing my job. LOL!!!

The second thing I want to thank God for is my wonderful FAMILY. Last year we were able to make arrangements to celebrate my brother-in-law Mickey's retirement from the Air Force. My brother-in-law served our country in the Air Force for 20 years. During those 20 years, he married my sister Mary and they had three great children (Michael, Maddie, and Marc). Not all the family was able to attend the event, but I have to say I'm thankful I was able to attend; because I learned a very valuable fact about my brother-in-law...he's a man of integrity. Not many men can have a reputation of integrity in the military. One of the statements they have while on TDY is "What happens on TDY stays on TDY!" My brother-in-law never used this statement as a guideline for his time away from his family. He continued to build a relationship with my sister and his children in the spare time he had. I was proud that I could call him my family (even if it is extended family). My FAMILY is also a family of prayer. When we each have needs we know we have people who will be praying for those needs. I have also enjoyed being from a big family...I come from one with six brothers and sisters. I have 11 nieces and nephews and a great niece or nephew will arrive in May of 2008.

The third thing I'm thankful for is my FRIENDS. I have a great team of supporters. I can't tell you how much I have leaned on them this year...especially these last few weeks. I haven't been the greatest friend to them, but they have been there for me anyway. God has expanded our gang this year. We now have a diverse could call us a diverse city now. I can't thank God enough for the friends He has provided me during this year. This year our friends went on vacation together. This was an interesting trip as we went to the beach. It was such a good time, and it was nice to be together for a week, and I think it helped our friendship deepen since we were still friends when we came back from the beach. LOL!!!

I'm thankful for the GLIMPSE OF A RELATIONSHIP. However, it didn't turn out the way I would have wanted it to...but at least he and I can be civil to each other. He's a really great guy and I'm glad I got the chance to get to know him a little better this year.

I'm thankful for MY PASTOR AND HIS WIFE. I can't tell you how many times I have bent the ears of my pastor and his wife. They are such giving people and willing to serve in whatever way I need them to. I really am thankful to have Pastor's wife Rhonda help me in the music department (until you have tried to lead music acapella or with a digital hymn player you understand and appreciate the piano player). It's a gift I wish I possessed, but God hasn't given me that gift...but I'm thankful He's given it to Rhonda, because I would be lost sometimes without her.

I have a great FULL TIME JOB. This year saw a few big changes. I moved from working in the main branch to the satellite office in Flatwoods on January 2nd. That was an interesting transition. Then in August we got news that the agent working in that office would be promoted to another county as agency manager. We would be getting a new agent for our satellite office. Bryan Carroll and his wife Michelle have been a great blessing to our Farm Bureau family. I'm thankful we work well together. Another change in the office was the addition of someone to work with me each day. A friend of mine I worked with at the pizza place applied for the secretary's job in our office and Brent allowed me to train her. She's doing a great job and has really picked up on quite a few new things.

MY PARENTS are amazing people. My dad has had some health issues this year. God saw us through every step of the way. During the surgery he had this year; God provided some distractions for me to help me in getting through not being able to be there at the hospital. My parents have been the most influential people in my life. My dad's knowledge of the Bible and who Jesus is has really enriched my life. His life is an example of how to live your faith each day. I know many people who say they are Christians, but their lives don't always match up to the talk...My dad is consistent. He's not perfect, but he's consistent. I'm thankful of his example of Jesus' love for me. No matter what I do my dad loves me unconditionally. My mom is someone I admire. I would someday love to put into practice what she has been teaching me these 37 years. Her example of how a wife is to submit to her husband..."for better, for worse..." They both can press each other's buttons...sometimes my mom's buttons are pressed more (especially in the mornings at breakfast time), but she's always there...doing those responsibilities that God has given to her.

JESUS...I'm thankful for what you are showing me each day. I know sometimes I struggle with the surrendering of my's not just a daily thing, nor hourly thing, nor moment thing...but a minute by minute thing. You totally see the "real me" yet You love me anyway. I love the fact that I can't do anything to make You love me anymore than You already do, nor can I do anything to make You love me any less. I love the fact You are working in areas of my life that I have tried to hide from You, but You patient wait while I slowly surrender those areas. You love me unconditionally, but You want me to be more like You so You continue to knock on doors in my life that I have closed from You...patiently knock. Not forcing Yourself in those areas. You allow me to choose to give it to You...You don't force me...or make me into Your robot, but You wait until I'm ready to open that door/area/issue to You...

I have just scratched the surface with this list. I could go on and on...which is what we are supposed to do each day. One of my favorite songs is "Count Your Blessings." Once we start counting we sometimes can't stop...and that's a good thing.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

The weekend...this is a good one!!!!!

This is been a really good beginning to the Thanksgiving holiday (I know Thanksgiving isn't until Thursday, but it usually begins for me the weekend before...because I try to prepare myself by getting my mind on things in my life that I'm thankful for.

On Friday, the weekend began as I left work. Sara and I had made plans to hang at my house in preparation of our Thanksgiving for Friends dinner on Saturday. She had to make the Oreo dessert and I had to make cheese balls for the OSU/Michigan game. It was such a fun time. She and I usually enjoy the time we spend together...sometimes it's great spending one on one time with each friend in the group. Sara and I are a like like sisters. She and I have quite a bit in common even though at first glance it may look as though we are so different, but after spending a week with her in Mexico...I now know she's truly more like me than most people believe. LOL!!!

So, we made the stuff we needed to make cleaned up the kitchen, went to town to get some food and then back home to eat it and watch a movie. We watched "Facing the Giants"...I really like that movie and she had never seen it. It's a movie that was brought up in Sunday school last week.

Saturday was a VERY long day for me...but I had a blast. I got up somewhere a little after 6...I actually slept late...LOL!!! Left my house close to 7 and stopped by Speedway to get some cappuccino for Kat, Ben and I then headed onto Kat's house for the preparation to begin. We cleaned the house first...then got the turkey ready. The OSU/Michigan game began around noon...I missed kick off as I was getting the much needed shower and changing into my OSU shirt to support the BEST team ever. We all were a little worried throughout the game, but the BUCKS won...YEAH!!!

After the game some of the kids that attended played wii. A Wii bowling tournament was started and Supermac was winning most of the games. I decided after dinner that I'd play him. I'm pretty good at Wii bowling, but I'm better at making guys a little nervous playing by promising a reward if they beat me. LOL!!! Let's just say, I never thought I'd be able to make Supermac blush...and he was glowing quite a bit.

This year's Thanksgiving with Friends dinner was attended a little lower than the last two, but we still considered it a success. We had invited close to 40 people this year and had two or three new ones join us this year. We missed some of the regulars in years past, but sometimes plans are unable to break. Anyway, we did have a good time.

After dinner, we were able to pick up the Wii bowling tournament again...and Supermac finally did go down...yes I did beat him. LOL!!! He brought his game during the second one...but I think was really afraid I may actually "reward" him so let me win the final game. It was a really good day, even though it was very LONG.

Today is Sunday...which is one of my favorite days of the week as well...but also one of the busiest now that I'm the church janitor. I'll be heading to church hopefully by get it opened and warmed for services. I pray my voice will be able to lead the music during services...I have been coughing and hacking most of this week.

Monday I believe I'll be going to my sister's house to help her put up the tree. I love putting up the Christmas trees. My family will be celebrating Christmas on Thanksgiving this I also have to shop before Thursday. LOL!!!

Well...may your Thanksgiving holidays go well. May you be able to count your blessings and be thankful in EVERYTHING. I'll write a blog later this week about those things in which I'm thankful for. I know it will be a lot...because I've got a GREAT GOD who blesses more than I deserve.

Much love to all who read this....until next time.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

New lesson...

So…I’m reading a book called “Grace Walk” by Steve McVey. It’s a book about what you’ve always wanted in the Christian life. What I’m discovering as I read it I have so much to unlearn. Our culture says “try harder” or “if at first you don’t succeed, try again.” Which are very good things to do, but in the Christian life it is Christ that is to be living in and through us. We aren’t to be doing any of the living in our own strength and abilities. We are to rely totally and 100% on Him being our Strength. Because this is something that God wants me to do I have tried to get a picture of what it’s supposed to be like. Of course there are many different analogies, but they just haven’t helped me. For instances, “God is our pilot.” I understand that when we look at God as our pilot it shows us He’s in control. Well…I can see where that can be a good analogy for people, but with me I need to put it in a situation that I can relate to…which was painted for me last night while driving home.

I know how to drive. I do it everyday. It’s something that sometimes I don’t even think about while I’m doing it. I just get in and go. Last night, I pictured myself in a limo. Oh yeah…it’s a limo…I’m sitting in the kind with the divider between the driver and the passengers. God is the driver doing all the driving…and I’m sitting in the back seat, enjoying the ride. Relaxing because He knows where He wants to take me. Trusting Him that He knows where we are going, since He’s got the map. I’m chilling in the back seat with some great tunes maybe drinking some Diet Pepsi Max (my choice of beverage now). It’s all good…because He knows where to take me. I don’t even have to say, take the scenic route, or make it there in a jiffy (as He knows the time schedule since He’s never late).

So this is a good picture, but I still had a little problem with it…because once I get to where He’s taking me. I could still have a tendency to do things in my own strength and abilities once I begin to work. I have learned that God wants to BE MY STRENGTH, not just get me stronger as a person so I can still try to do things FOR Him instead of Him doing things THROUGH me. Well…this morning, God painted another picture. I work with the puppet team at church. We have got some great little guys that are so adorable and cute, but when they are in the box they don’t have a life to them. Even getting them out of the box and laying them on the chair there still don’t do anything “cute.” BUT…when one of our puppet team members put their hand in them…they come to life. They are able to do the “cute” and “funny” things. This being said, I realized that by dying to my self God is able to come into my life and live through me. Galatians 2:20 “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.” So when we die and let Christ live His life through us…we are living again. I’m sort of like God’s puppet…but I'm not a robot...I still have a choice. I think this is going to be an interesting adventure.

On my work email I have this statement as a signature for every out going mail. It's been interesting to see who has commented on it. It came from the Daily Bread last week..."No life is more secure than a life surrendered to God."

Monday, November 12, 2007

The test...

Matthew 7:12

(KJV): “Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so them: for this is the law and the prophets.”

(NASB): “In everything, therefore, treat people the same way you want them to treat you, for this is the Law and the Prophets.”

I’m sure you’ve heard the statement “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” People call it the Golden Rule. This is a good rule to live by…but it’s also a hard rule to live by. I like the way the Message states this verse: “Here is a simple, rule-of-thumb guide for behavior: Ask yourself what you want people to do for you, then grab the initiative and do it for them. Add up God’s Law and Prophets and this is what you get.”

How many times in our lives have we been hurt by a person and instead of turning the other cheek, we try to do something to make them hurt as much as we do…if not more??? I, being a selfish person, sometimes use the golden rule this way…”Do unto others as they do unto you…if they treat you like crap it gives you the right to treat them like crap.” But I’m so wrong in that thinking. And when you have to apologize to a person for hurting them it really makes a person think about how good of a friend they really are.

This is the lesson I’m in the process of learning. Treating others the way I want to be treated. It’s a lesson that began the first part of the week, when a friend was asking me where to find “The Golden Rule” in the Bible. So I began searching the Scriptures to help her out. Well…I did some cross references and added another passage that states it a little differently (Luke 6:27-30ff). So anyway…I looked the passage up and I think I even quoted it in my hand written journal. Well, God brought a test to see if I had learned anything from my study. I hate to say this, but I failed…totally flunk the test. However, I didn’t realize I failed until Sunday morning service. Kristen shared a passage of scripture with us in Sunday school, and it was Luke 6:27-30. Then talking with two good friends of mine, I realized I allowed my selfishness and pride to overcome me and I treated someone the way they treated me instead of showing grace to this person and treating them the way I want to be treated. Flunking the test, may have ruined a good friendship…one that I may not be able to fix. The consequences of failing a lesson God is trying to teach me.

The good news though…with God grace is provided…forgiveness…a second chance…a third chance…etc. He loves me just as I am, but loves me enough to not keep me that way. He loves me unconditionally. How beautiful grace is!!! How good confession is for the soul. Confession – “acknowledgement or disclosure of sin or sinfulness.” Repentance – “The act or process of repenting; Remorse or contrition for past conduct of sin”…it’s an important act in our Christian life (repent – “to feel sorry, self-reproachful, or contrite for past conduct; regret or be conscience-stricken about a past action, attitude, etc). Forgiveness – “The act of forgiving; pardon” (forgive – to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc); absolve – which means “to set free”). So here’s the deal…we do wrong…then we need to confess it as sin (agree with God that we have done wrong)…repent from it (turn away from it and to God)…and accept His forgiveness (because He’s already paid the price for that sin and forgiven us.)

I want to leave you with Luke 6:27-30 in the Message.

“To you who are ready for the truth, I say this: Love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst. When someone gives you a hard time, respond with the energies of prayer for that person. If someone slaps you in the face, stand there and take it. If someone grabs your shirt, gift wrap your best coat and make a present of it. If someone takes unfair advantage of you, use the occasion to practice the servant life. No more tit-for tat stuff. Live generously.”

My Father, may I live a life of generosity. Give me the ability to do as you have said in Your Word. May You shine through my life. When people look at me, may they see the reflection of You…Amen!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Great Casting Crowns...

"Praise You In This Storm"

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I can't add much more to this...Thanks God for being Who You are...

Friday, November 09, 2007

Reflection of something...

Todd Agnew is an amazing song writer. You can tell that he writes as a person who studies theology and who loves the God he serves. One of his CD's is titled "Reflection of something." He stated that we all are a reflection of something...but what we Christians need to be is a Reflection of Jesus, our Savior.

After work, I had a doctor's appointment. It was just a checkup. I had bloodwork drawn yesterday and the results were being read today. I got to go to a different doctor. Things are still going where they should be...I do have some fluid in my right ear, which may be the cause of some dizziness that I've experienced. I have perfect bloodwork again. She was very impressed with the readings. I still have a few things that need to be watched, but most of all it's good. I'm below average with Cholestrol / HDL and LDL/HDL that's excellent news. I was so excited...and my friends were too they wanted to celebrate with dinner. We went to Applebees, then went to Walmart to pick up some medication for my ear fluid.

On the way home, Kat had Christmas music playing and she put on Todd Agnew's Christmas CD, and wanted Ginger to listen to the one of the songs "Did You Know?" The song has some questions for Jesus on the day He was born. Here are the lyrics...

"Were Mary’s the first eyes you saw
Or did You remember choosing that shade of brown?
Were You surprised at the shepherd’s crazy story
Or did You know You wrote the song the angels sang?

What was this life like for You?

Did You know?
Did the cross cast its shadow o’er your cradle?
Did You know?
Did You shudder each time Your hammer struck a nail?
Did you know?
How much heaven and how much earth
Were in this baby at His birth?
Did you know? Or did you wonder?

Did you remember the brightness of Your glory Or did You just notice it was cold and dark here?
Did You know Your name or did you have to be told?

Were You just a baby or were You as old as time?

What was Your life like?"

Kat shared her favorite line was "Did you shudder each time Your hammer struck a nail?" Jesus was afterall a carpenter by trade. It's a question I probably would not have thought of, but a person can wonder what was going on Jesus' mind. My thought for the evening...Jesus was 100% God and 100% man. This is called "The Hypostatical Union" (this is what I learned in my Theology class.) But since Jesus was 100% God...and God knows everything...while He was hanging on the cross dying for the sins of the world...including mine. I was on his mind. My brother Tim sings a song called "When He Was On The Cross...I Was On His Mind." I have heard him sing that song many times...but tonight, thinking about the fact that Jesus thought about me...that maybe sometimes when He got away from the world He was in to commune with The Father...did He talk about us? Did He think about all the people He was here for? When He was in the garden praying to the Father "O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless, not as I will, but as thou wilt." (Matt. 26:39) He knew the reason He was here...He knows those who are going to accept this free gift of salvation...each of us are the reasons He came...and even for those who reject them...they have the opportunity to accept, but by not choosing to accept the gift, they reject it.

I can't imagine being a person who doesn't have the hope that we Christians do. To go through life...even the "good" days in my life need to have a HOPE. And yet there are people who will continue to reject Jesus. This Christmas season has me reflecting a lot about how I live my life. How much time I waste and not use in furthering the kingdom. May I change my ways...May my eyes be opened to those who need to see Jesus in my life...May I be a reflection of Jesus and His love to all the world.

I Will Not Be Moved (lyrics to song of the moment)

I haven't figured out the lyrics to the bridge but this is the verses and chorus. It has been requested that the lyrics be here you go mom. LOL!!

I have been a wayward child
And I have acted out
And I have questioned sovereignty
And have my share of doubts
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They're bouncin' off the sky
The hand I hold won't let me go
And here's the reason why

I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face hard aches
But I will not be moved
On Christ the solid rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved (no, no)

Bitterness has plagues my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score of all my
Shattered dreams and through it seemed
I was far too gone
Amazing Grace helped me to see
It's Grace I'm standing on

I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face hard aches
But I will not be moved
On Christ the solid rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Am I Settling???

So last night I was at church working with one of the choir members who had a solo for the Christmas Cantata. The song is called "We Settle." It's the Inn Keeper who sings it and he's talking about how he sometimes is perceived as the villian of the story, but if we are all honest with ourselves...we sometimes turn God away in our lives by settling for less than God's best.

As I sat there listening to Rick sing, God began to speak at my heart...pointing in certain areas where I may have settled because I wanted something (that may not have been bad,) but it wasn't God's best for me. Sometime I can be so stubborn that God is trying to get my attention to show me where to go next, but because I'm distracted with other things, I end up settling.

I have read the story and I'm sure maybe you have too, but while I was sitting there thinking about how I have settled for something so frivolous when God our Father wants to give us HIS best. In case you wanted to read the story I have posted it below.

I also wanted to share with you my new song of the moment. There is a video clip on my profile page with Natalie Grant singing "I Will Not Be Moved." I think the song will be included on the CD not yet released. After the experience with God last night about settling, I listened to the words of this song and they have made an impact on me. I'm so thankful I have an identity in Christ and that the foundation for that identity is upon a SOLID ROCK. Hallelujah!!

Beautiful Pearls

Jenny was a bright-eyed, pretty five-year-old girl.

One day when she and her mother were checking out at the grocery store, Jenny saw a plastic pearl necklace priced at $2.50. How she wanted that necklace, and when she asked her mother if she would buy it for her, her mother said, "Well, it is a pretty necklace, but it costs an awful lot of money. I'll tell you what. I'll buy you the necklace, and when we get home we can make up a list of chores that you can do to pay for the necklace.

And don't forget that for your birthday Grandma just might give you a whole dollar bill, too. Okay?" Jenny agreed, and her mother bought the pearl necklace for her.

Jenny worked on her chores very hard every day, and sure enough, her grandma gave her a brand new dollar bill for her birthday. Soon Jenny had paid off the pearls. How Jenny loved those pearls. She wore them everywhere to kindergarten, bed and when she went out with her mother to run errands.

The only time she didn't wear them was in the shower. Her mother had told her that they would turn her neck green!

Now Jenny had a very loving daddy. When Jenny went to bed, he would get up from his favorite chair every night and read Jenny her favorite story.

One night when he finished the story, he said, "Jenny, do you love me?"

"Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you," the little girl said.

"Well, then, give me your pearls."

"Oh! Daddy, not my pearls!" Jenny said. "But you can have Rosy, my favorite doll. Remember her? You gave her to me last year for my birthday. And you can have her tea party outfit, too. Okay?"

"Oh no, darling, that's okay." Her father brushed her cheek with a kiss. "Good night, little one."

A week later, her father once again asked Jenny after her story, "Do you love me?"

"Oh yes, Daddy, you know I love you."

"Well, then, give me your pearls."

"Oh, Daddy, not my pearls! But you can have Ribbons, my toy horse. Do you remember her? She's my favorite. Her hair is so soft, and you can play with it and braid it and everything. You can have Ribbons if you want her, "Daddy," the little girl said to her father.

"No, that's okay," her father said and brushed her cheek again with a kiss. God bless you, little one. Sweet dreams."

Several days later, when Jenny's father came in to read her a story, Jenny was sitting on her bed and her lip was trembling. " Here, Daddy," she said, and held out her hand. She opened it and her beloved pearl necklace was inside. She let it slip into her father's hand.

With one hand her father held the plastic pearls and the other he pulled out of his pocket a blue velvet box. Inside of the box were real, genuine, beautiful pearls. He had had them all along. He was waiting for Jenny to give up the cheap stuff so he could give her the real thing.

So it is with GOD. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so he can give us beautiful treasure.

Isn't God good?

This made me think about the things I hold on to and wonder what God wants to give me in its place.

May we not continue to settle for less than God has in store for us.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

New Song of the Moment

I heard this song today...I think it may become my next song of the moment. It's a little rocky, but the words are amazing...I don't them written out, but if you listen closely I think you will be able to understand them.


Saturday, November 03, 2007

First Love...

I was reading a friend's blog on her myspace page about God, relationships, and dating. While reading it I remember a really good song by Avalon entitled "First Love." Thought I'd share the lyrics with you all.

I used to be the one
Who would long to hear your voice
A child who sought to win his Father's heart
But as I carried on
Life got a hold on me
Now here I am, a child so far from home

Tell me when did I lose my first love?
Where did the fire and passion go?
Burn in me Your holy fire
Give me back my lost desire
And restore in me the love I felt for You

Can I remember how it felt
When they looked into my face
And they saw the love of Jesus in my eyes
When I look back on my life
And question where I've been
Can I really say I've done my best for you?

Oh, where did I go?
(I've lost my way, I've lost my love, I'm all alone)
Oh, I'm lost and I'm alone
Oh, help me please
Lord, lead me home

Father take me back
And let me start again
Lord, I've failed and I've fallen in my pride
But lead me back to you
Where my life began
Revive in me the yearning that has died.

May we draw back to our First Love...He's the One who is ALWAYS with us. Thank you, Jesus....

Tuesday, October 30, 2007


Its been a long time coming
since I saw your face
Since we held it down
Since we were in the chase
It was the road less traveled
The path less formed
A skinny trail
It was barely worn
But we kept walkin'and slippin' and talking'
And runnin' and fallin'
And cryin' and crawlin'
We were in the trenches
On top of the world
Young refugees but we were momma's pearls
Where you been dog?
Where you been?

I thought you fell off the face of the earth
I thought you fell, I thought you fell
I thought you fell off the face of the earth
I thought you fell, I thought you fell

Its been way too long and we've come too far
For you to drop out of my life like a falling star
Right off my radar
Not a sign or a trace
You know I had love for you that's Bigger than mistakes
Now Hope Road is calling
Let's pack you up and move'
Cause real friends are willing to intrude
So I'm gonna push you in because I wanna love you well
Let the ghosts of your past rest

Open up the door
This is the first day of the rest of your life
What are you waiting for?
This is the first day of the rest of your life
Open up the door
To life ...
Behold I stand at the door and knock
If anyone hears my voice and opens the doorI will come in ...

What a promise God gives us when we totally lean on Him during the trouble times we face. I'm thankful I have put my faith and trust in a Savior who cares and loves me. Who doesn't leave me when I'm struggling...Who brings specific people in my life to encourage me...Who not only loves me unconditionally, but also likes me.

I'm learning that in the face of trials and struggles in our lives...God is there...How do I know??? Because of the great examples recorded in the Bible, David, Abraham, Moses, etc. Because in my own family...God has proven Himself time and time again. I'm thankful my parents allowed me to see where God stepped in and totally took control of the situation and trial we faced. It helps me to know that I can trust because I've seen Him come through in another situation.

A friend of mine left a quote for me in an email. It said, "I wish my bra was as supportive as my friends." LOL!! It was a good quote, but seriously...I have great friends...they support me when I'm down...they rejoice in my accomplishments...they are real. I'm so thankful to have great friends in my life.

As for the rest of me...I'm not feeling to well. I came home from work early with an upset stomach and headache. I don't have a fever, so I'm not sure if I'll stay home tomorrow or not. I may if I still have this queasy feeling...I don't think I'm contagious since there is no fever, but I just don't feel well when having to sit up at work.

Continue to pray for my friend. I haven't heard from him and am leaving Him in God's hands.

Until next time...

Monday, October 29, 2007


I have started a journal...actually writing journal. I keep it with me everywhere I go. It's packed full of prayers mostly, some sermon notes that have really been helpful, also quotes I've seen, and song lyrics that have been encouraging. Well...last night after church, I was driving around Ironton and came across a church sign. Since I have started changing the sign at my church, I have been reading more church signs in the area to see what sort of encouraging words are on them. Sometimes it's really good...but other times it's so corny I couldn't imagine being the person to take credit for them. Anyway, I saw this quote yesterday evening, "The trial will not exceed the strength that will be given to bear it." How true and encouraging that statement is...There's a song I have sand in the past by The Martins "It Came To Pass." The song lyric says, "it didn't come to stay it came to pass, the Lord will move that mountain if you'll ask, the trials that we see today won't last, didn't come to stay it came to pass." We will get through the trial we are facing...there is joy in the morning. Last Thursday I began reading the Daily Bread after my Pastor mentioned something that I said that reminded him of something he had read. I stated how trials will make us grow in our hurts, but it's important for us to grow. That reading for the bread that day was about how when a tree doesn't grow ... someone hits it. It tramatizes it and causes grow. Just as the gardener will cut off the dead pieces to allow the beautiful flowers to we must be cut back to allow Christ to shine in us.

I have a friend who is struggling through a valley. I really don't know exactly what he's facing as he hasn't confided in me...but what I do know is his father's birthday is this Friday or Saturday...he's really missing him. I've told him I would be praying for him...and ask the prayers of others. May God be glorified in his life...and may be walk through this trial an incredible man of faith.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

God is in Control...

It's been awhile since I've posted anything. I have had a song in my mind for about a week. It's an old song, but still rings true. I thought I'd post the lyrics here. It's by Twila Paris entitled "God is in Control." Since I am the one to change the sign at church, I thought I'd put that statement to remind me that He is in control. Enjoy...

This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determination
Don't lose the vision here
Carried away by emotion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together

God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside Him, we know
God is in control, oh God is in control

History marches on
There is a bottom line drawn across the ages
Culture can make its plan
Oh, but the line never changes
No matter how the deception may fly
There is one thing that has always been true
It will be true forever
He has never let you down
Why start to worry now?
He is still the Lord of all we see
And He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me
watching over you...watching over me..
watching over every thing..
watching over you..watching over me..
every little sparrow..every little thing...

Monday, October 22, 2007


Weekend for me began on Friday. I took the day off to have a mental health day, but it ended up I worked quite a bit. I started at the church and cleaned my butt off. I hadn't gotten to do it at all on Thursday night, so I think since I was off my routine, it took me longer.

I came home and rested for a bit and then headed back out to meet up with my friends Kat and Mary to shop for Family Day stuff. We got part of the stuff, but we all had things to do that night and Kat and I decided to just meet early on Saturday to finish.

Mary and I then headed to Moe's to get something to eat before heading to conference. It was a good time for us, and she was keeping me busy throughout the weekend. After conference on Friday night, we went to my friend D33's house to watch a movie. It was a good time with some new friends as well as some of the support system.

Saturday began quite early and I met Kat and we headed to Wal-mart to get the rest of the stuff. When we finished I had to run a few errands to finish up Sammi's birthday present before meeting her to head to her dinner. She, Christina and I drove up to Mary's house and then Mary drove us to Olive Garden for dinner. We met, Supermac, D33, Ben and Kat there as well. The dinner was good ... I got to have ravioli de portabella. After dinner a few of us went to the movies. I would have rather gone to take a nap...the movie was horrible. Anyway, after the movie, Sammi, Mary and I went to Wal-mart. I just realized that I went to Wal-mart twice in one day. It was a good and long day.

Sunday was Family Day at church. That morning I:43 sang "Everything To Me." It went well. I almost didn't make it through my verse, but I did get through it. That afternoon some of us stayed to get ready for the festival we were having. We had two inflatables, and some different contests. Then we had a special speaker that evening. It was a good time for everyone involved, but again it was a long day. There was one person who was saved that night. That was great news. After service, since we didn't have choir practice, we went to Ben and Kat's to watch "Transformers." I endedup going home early, because I was falling asleep, but by the time I got home, I was awake I got online to check some things out.

Today was back to work. It was a hectic day as the phone lines are messing up. I called the phone company, but they didn't get to it I have a feeling tomorrow may go crazy too.

Until next time...

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Sermons put into actions....

So, the preacher prepares a sermon for Sunday morning/Sunday evening/Wednesday evening Bible Study and maybe questions to himself, "Is this really going to impact people?" "Is what You have given me to study, really what I need to speak to the people?" Sometimes at the moment of the sermon has been given - a decision is made...while other times it's simply planting of a seed to later blossom into something beautiful. Well, I was the result of a seed being planted to later blossom for growth.

The sermon was delivered last Sunday. Today while driving into town, I was playing my ipod from my stereo system and had it a little loud and was singing along (at the top of my lungs) a song called "Additive Love" by BeBe & CeCe Winans. This song has a very special place in my heart because it brings back good memories with my sister Mary. Anyway...while I was singing, a thought from the message on Sunday came into my mind. Pastor had spoke on The Keeper of the Prison. This is one of my favorite experiences recorded in the Bible about Paul's ministry. He and Silas had been preaching and were arrested...and while they were in prison, Paul and Silas began singing praises to God.

Pastor asked a few questions to us..."How does the world see you when you are going through struggles and trials? Do they see you as being joyful even though those circumstances are rough? Or do they see you as being without hope?" I sat that and evaluated my past trials...I have seen both ways...sometimes I was able to praise Him during the storm...while other times I was barely surviving.

Well...recently I've gotten the opportunity to experience a patch in the road of Life that is an uncertainty. It's not been a major rough patch, but it hasn't been good paved road, I enjoy travelling. Anyway...I was driving to town today with my ipod playing through the stereo system, and I was singing right along with it, a great classic BeBe & CeCe song "Additive Love," when I realized "I'm singing...and I'm not really at a place where I would normally be singing...the circumstances in life are situations that cause pain and questions, but I'm actually singing. Then the words of my Pastor were brought back to my does the world see you when you are faces situations that are tough? I began to cry...but not sad tears for the situation I was in...but happy tears because I was able to rejoice in the Lord in the trial He has allowed me to experience. What a blessed thought! Growing in the grace and in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. It's what we are here bring praise to God. We were made to praise Him in everything ... we are commanded to give thanks in everything (not just the good times, but also the bad times...the rough times...the uncertain times...IN EVERYTHING.) Hallelujah!!

I'm excited about tomorrow now...getting the opportunity to sit under my Pastor's teaching once again...and be challenged in my growth. God is good...all the time...all the time...God is good.

Friday, October 19, 2007

New Song of the Moment

The new song on my myspace profile ( is one of my favorites from the group Anointed. I think it's becoming my song of the moment now. I honestly thought I was heading for a Christmas song for my next song of the moment, but since life has a way of throwing us curves, I have decided to use this song as my song of the moment. May I continue to place my life in God's Hands.

It's In God's Hands Now
I've done all I can to please you
But I can't wipe away that frown
I'm letting go, that's how much I love you
It's in God's hands now
I gave you my heart forever
And I will keep that solemn vow
But I can't put us back together, no
It's in God's hands now
Lord knows I cried and cried
Cause I don't want to lose you
Oh I've tried, yes I've tried
But if I'm not the one who moves you
I won't hold you down
My head is in a cloud of sorrow
But my feet are on the ground
There's hope for us as long as there's tomorrow
It's in God's hands now
(Repeat Chorus)

Monday, October 08, 2007

Christian music ... in Hollywood

Anyone who knows me...knows how big music is in my life. Now...the interesting thing is it's Christian music that is my passion. Music can bring so many emotions. When you hear a song sometimes you can be taken back to a moment in time when either that song was playing...or maybe you just remember something that you experienced from that songs message...

I think it's great how many Christian artists are getting played in the movies and tv of Hollywood. I've heard shows like Wildfire from abcfamily played some tobymac...Dawson's Creek had a Six Pence none the richer song in their show...even my favorite show One Tree Hill played a song by "Across the Sky" during one episode. Even though it wasn't used in the movie a song by Tobymac was played during the movie trailer of "Transporter 2." It's just really great to see many artists...and I have only scratched the surface in mentioning just the ones here.
Anywho...I was at the movies on Saturday...watching "The Game Plan." I didn't expect to hear one of my FAVORITE artist in the movie, but there it was...TOBYMAC being played during a scene in the movie. The cool thing it has a really cool beat, but the words in it are praising God...the way T-mac is able to do.

TOBYMAC - Feelin' So Fly lyrics
You got me feeling so fly
There ain't a day that goes by
A supernatural high
Oh my goodness - people I can't deny
You got me feeling so fly
Uh oh, here we go again
Talking about that thing that so genuine
Uh huh, gonna make it known
So a freak like me get his cover blown
Can't help but glorify my Adonai
Gotta testify
Uh oh, here we go again
Talking bout His love so genuine
This ain't no fire drill
It hits like Holyfield
Break out your freak appeal
You think you know the deal
I'm gonna show you what's for real
There ain't a day that goes by
That I'm not singing Your praise
There ain't a day that goes by
That I'm not lifting your name
A supernatural high
Your love is simply insane
You got me feeling so fly
So fly when it's You and I
And the way we hanging in the morning time
And it's so dope I can barely cope
When you make my joy go and overflow
I can't help but glorify my Adonai
It's so fly that it's blowing minds
So fly that they can't deny
There ain't a day that goes by
That I'm not singing Your praise
There ain't a day that goes by
That I'm not completely amazed
A supernatural high
Your love is simply insane
You got me feeling so fly
Knock, knock
Who's there?
Well it's me, TMac
Feeling fly as a kangol hat
Insecticides can't steal this shine cuz
The fly I feel is straight divine

May we be able to praise our Father in heaven in our lives...

Until next time...

Thursday, October 04, 2007


For those of you who read this, I wanted to share with you about my wonderful family. A few days ago I shared with you about mothers and how I wanted to applaude them for a job well done. Well, I have a great dad as well. When I was younger he was a pastor. Now that I'm older he's had to change the way he serves God. Now he teaches at a local Bible Institute (the one from where I graduated), and also serves in filling the pulpit when other local pastors are needing a break.

As a child I learned that God was my Heavenly Father. This is a great picture of God to me, because of my earthly father He allowed me to be born to. My dad is a man of God who lives by example of what he's studied. He doesn't just read the Bible, he lives it out. I have talked to people who know of a Christian who doesn't live like a Christian at home or in private, but when they are in front of a crowd display a "perfect" example of a life. My dad was real ALL the time. He's not a perfect man, he does have flaws, but that is what is real. He doesn't try to live a life that is all put together. He knows that God is still working on him.

The interesting thing about my dad is that when I was little he wasn't always home for us to "get to know" him. But as I grew older, he seemed to be around the house more. It seemed to change when we moved from the little town of Oak Hill to the small town of Ironton. And then even more when he resigned the church he had pastored during my middle school and high school years. He went from being a pastor of a church that was in the area to pastoring a church that was about an hour away. When he resigned that church things were even more changed, because we all went to a church where my brother pastored. That didn't stay the same though...because he began to do a lot of preaching for other pastors due to his position at Southland....which eventually allowed him to pastor a church in the back of Ashland. Now that he's had to take a break from pastoring...he's around the house a little more. It's fun to do things with him that I didn't do as a child. We really enjoy watching "Amerian Idol" when it's on...the commentary he does for that show is hilarious in itself. LOL!!

Another memory as a child I had of my dad, was when I would go with him to hospital visits. It wasn't my favorite thing to do with him, but because of the encouragement of my wonderful mom who would suggest that I do with him...I would end up going and actually learned things about my dad. One special memory I had with him was going to the VA Hospital in Huntington with him. I wouldn't actually go into the rooms with dad...I was waiting in the waiting room while he would visit. I would take my cassette player (yes, I didn't have a CD player and ipod wasn't even thought of back then...LOL) and I would listen to music while he would do visiting. On our way back to the car one time, he pointed to a building on that property and said, "My class did a program there." He proceeded to tell me things about his childhood. As we drove home we went a different way and he showed me where he swam as a kid, and other stories. I really enjoyed that day and it still is a day I look back on with fond memories.

I'm thankful for my dad and his example of fatherhood he gave me. Because of the way he lives...he shows me that my heavenly father is easily accessible and wants me to talk to Him daily. He shows me that He wants me to talk to Him about my problems and that He cares for me. Since the picture of an earthly father is so's easy for me to see my Heavenly Father as someone I can go to...for ANYTHING.

Thanks dad...I love you...

Until next time...

Tuesday, October 02, 2007


Yesterday was a tribute to mothers for me. It started out with watching an interview with Ann Curry and Jenna Bush. Ann had asked her about her mother and Jenna had only praises for what a great mother she has. When that got me to thinking about my wonderful mother. She has been a great wife to my well as an example of how a wife should be. Then when I went to work, I was talking to two women and the first one was telling me how her sister gave her a car and they were able to get it fixed, and now she was getting insurance on it. She continued to tell me that she has 6 children. I was amazed a girl my age had 6 children already. I began to talk to this women and made sure I let her know she was doing a great job raising her kids. This women actually homeschools her children. I also wanted her to know that being a mother is an important job. Well...a few customers later and I was talking to another women who had ... 6 children. Again I wanted to applaude her for being a mother to her kids and how she had an important job doing that.

So many women today get criticism for being (and I hate this statement) "just a mom" or "stay at home mom"...When I was a little girl my mom didn't work outside the home until I was in third grade...that was a rough year for me. She used to be home when I got off the bus and suddenly she was working at a job in the next city. It was an adjustment, and I remembered how hard it was for me. I loved having my mom home.

As a kid, when most kids are thinking about what they want to do when they grow up, my dream job was to be a mom. I haven't been able to fulfil that dream, but I do try to spend lots of time with my nieces and nephews my siblings have given me. It's a blessing to be able to impact a childs life...and for those mothers out there who fill as though there are people in the world that don't appreciate what you do...I want to thank you for your effort in raising your children. I also want to give honor to my mom, sisters and sisters-in-law (Garnet, Leah, Mary, Tonda, Susan, and Cindy) who have taken on the responsibility God has given them in raising their children. And to my sister Becky who is a wonderful aunt to our nieces and nephews...may you and I be able to support those mothers out there.

Until next time...

Thursday, September 27, 2007


It's been a crazy week at work. The new agent is in school this week so he's been gone all week. Joyce is on vacation in the Greenup office, so they have moved Crystal in that office to help Katherine (the newest member of the Bureau). So since all of my people are gone in my office, my boss (the agency manager) has been working with me. It's been an interesting week. My permanent record is growing my leaps and bounds, because he's seeing all my "problem" areas. LOL!!! He teases me about my "permanent record." I've been told it's so big that he's had to go digital to hold everything. I told him he could be like the President and pardon me...LOL!!! He really has been a help...well, if you call answering the phones with the following, "Farm Bureau, may I help you?" (long pause...) "Hold one moment while I transfer you to the secretary." Yes, that's about all he says. Actually today wasn't as bad as the first part of the week. I really hope tomorrow is even better.

Things at the church have been getting underway to begin work on the Christmas Cantata. I had to call the Mustard Seed Bookstore to check on the order. It should be coming into the store in the next few days. I hope we can get them before this Sunday so we can begin to work on it.

Kat is already getting the backdrop ideas. We are hoping to be able to incorporate a new way of decorating. I'm not sure it's going to work, but you never know...

Things with Dave are still going. We have been dating a little over a month. We had a really nice date last Saturday night. It seemed that we both had been too busy to enjoy getting to know each he wanted to just take last weekend and just rest. He didn't get to rest too much, but I had a good time. I was able to get the church cleaned on Friday night, so I could take all of Saturday off. I met up with Dave around 5:00, he had just finished up cooking dinner for me. We had a really delicious chicken dish. It's called "Hot Chicken Salad." Not hot as in spicy, but hot as in heat. It's baked in the oven with potato chips crumbled on was really good. After we ate, we went for a drive in the Honda he purchased. I hadn't got a chance to ride in it as it was in the garage getting the A/C fixed. As we began our drive, we stopped by some friends of his house to visit and see the dog "Tucker" ... who I thought was a puppy...however, even though he was only 7 months, the dog could stand on his hind legs and be my height. It was quite the visit...He licked my hair...and I think he left have the saliva from his mouth in my hair. LOL!! Yes can say it...also was sneezed on by a horse. It was an interesting beginning, but it did get better.

After leaving the friend's house, we stopped and got a milkshake, then headed to Ashland, where he showed me the building where the store he used to work was located. He made a comment about starting at that building in 1977. Well...there is an age difference between Dave and myself...and I was just making a comment when I said the following statement, but I have to say I think I may have dug myself into a hole. Anyway...after he said the year he began, I said, "oh, I was 7." The look he gave me was priceless...mind you he was only 17, but it was just a passing thought I had. Anyway, after apologizing for the statement, he showed me where he lived most of his life as well as the apartment he moved to before moving where he currently lives. It was a really nice time...even with my poor choice of statements. LOL!!!

Last Sunday evening, I was sitting in church and pastor had asked the congregation to pick out a verse to share. Well...if any of you know's very difficult for me to pick just one of I shared my life chapter "Psalm 139", but I read verses from I Thess. 5:12-22. While I sat there waiting for my time to share, I began to think it would be a good idea to memorize these verses, so I'm doing my best to memorize them. These are some of the most shortest verses, but such powerful building blocks to build onto the foundation we have in God.

12 But we request of you, brethren, that you appreciate those who diligently labor among you, and have charge over you in the Lord and give you instruction
13 and that you esteem them very highly in love becuase of their work. LIve in peace with one another.
14 We urge you, brethren, admonish the unruly, encourage the fainthearted, help the weak, be patient with everyone
15 See that no one repays another with evil for evil, but always seek after that which is good for one another and for all people.
16 Rejoice always;
17 pray without ceasing
18 in everything give thanks; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus
19 Do not quench the Spirit;
20 do not despise prophetic utterances.
21 But examine everything carefully; hold fast to that which is good
22 abstain from every form of evil.

Anyone who knows me knows music is a big part of my life and I really enjoy listening to good Christian music. Since that's the's really hard for me to pick a FAVORITE what I do is pick "Songs of the moment." These are songs that I end up listening to over and over for a period of time. Sometimes I go for several months and not listen to this particular song after it's been a song of the moment...and sometimes it stays in the rotation of my collection. It just depends. Currently my song of the moment is "Total Praise" the version my Avalon's CD "Faith: A Hymns Collection." I really like how they arranged the song. It's a song I probably wouldn't have fact, it's in the movie "Second Chance" and I didn't realize it until I watched the movie again (after hearing this song). My favorite line is "I lift my hands in total praise to You." As a young girl, I was raised in churches that didn't do this. Seeing now that God loves it when we raise our hands in total surrender and total praise to Him is something I really enjoy adding in my praise. I really love listening to this song in my car...I sometimes will sit in the car until it's over so I can finish my time of praise with God. It's a really great song...Check it out if you get a chance. (On a side note...I think I will be having a new Song of the Moment very soon...I just heard a sample of "Hallelujah" off the new David Phelps Christmas CD.'s AMAZING. Just thought I'd give you a taste as to where I'm heading in the next few weeks with my music listening. LOL!!! It's the most wonderful time of the year....

Until next time....

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Just blogging...

It's really cool how things can change in a matter of a few moments, days, weeks, months, etc. I work at an insurance office as a secretary...dealing a lot with customer service. What's interesting about my job, is I can figure out the answers, but they don't want to hear from me the answer...they want to hear from the agent. Which is fine with me, as long as the agent will call the customer. The problem a few weeks ago...we had an agent who didn't work in the office much. NOW...we have a wonderful agent. His name is Bryan Carroll. His wife has been coming to learn the system as well, so if we need her to do anything. I really am excited how this change has affected the stress from my job. Thank the Lord...

Another praise...I had lost the name I drew for the family drawing for year 2006...since we didn't do Christmas last year, they had decided to just use the names for that year. I had lost mine, and was concerned about how I would get the correct person a gift. Well...after much searching I found the name. Praise the Lord.

That's all for now...Until next time...

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Feels like fall is here...

Until next week that is...I hear it's going to be back in the 90's...I personally like the cooler weather. I hate being hot and not being able to breathe.

Something interesting...I found an old journal I started. It was called the "guilt-free" journal. It was set up that it didn't matter if you wrote in it everyday or once a week....or even once every two or three years. I happened to find it a couple of days ago and saw where the last time I wrote in it I was going through a difficult time. It was right after a heartbreak. Funny thing I found it a day before the anniversary of the breakup. It was interesting how I was thankful that breakup had happened. To be reminded that God knows best and He is sovereign was an eye-opener for me. It was a Jesus moment for me and I'm glad I had it.

Speaking of Jesus moments...I'm singing today at church...I think I am going to end up singing "Jesus" by Avalon...but I'm still not sure. I'm sure I'll decided before I leave...especially if I forget to take any other options with me. LOL!!!

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Labor Day weekend...and new beginnings...

Well...It was a VERY busy weekend for me. Saturday I was in a friend's wedding, so Friday night was spent at the rehearsal and with my friend as she was getting ready to embark on her new adventure. The wedding was was a little different, but the vows were beautiful. Some I had never heard before...Since it was an outside wedding, I was thankful the wedding had a break. The girls in the bridal party ended up not wearing any shoes...I was thankful because the wedding was 45 minutes long. I wasn't sure I would be able to make it in even the small heals I got. Thankfully, the bride was cool with going barefoot.

After the wedding, I had planned a birthday party for Dave, so my friend Erica took me to get my car at another friend's house and I went home to change and get ready for the party. I think Dave had a good time. It was nice having his friend's with us for the party. When we left there, Adam, Marisa and Isaac came back to Dave's house, but we had to make a few stops before getting there. I gave Dave his presents and he seemed to like them. It was a good, but long day.

Sunday was a little easier, but the typically Sunday. I got up, went to church, and then met Dave for lunch. Our church service was really nice because the message went along with our Sunday school lesson (once again...). Pastor spoke on worship. The spiritual discipline we finished up was on worship...even if the message doesn't actually cover the discipline we talk about, it usually reinforces what we did cover that morning. It's been really neat to see how God works with those things.

During the afternoon, Dave asked me to go to Walmart for him and pick up pictures that he wanted to give to his cousin on Monday when we headed to Columbus. Marisa ended up going with me and that was nice to be able to hang out with her. I got back to the house, but it was VERY close to the time I needed to go and Dave was worried about me being late and my driving, but I had called my friend who I was meeting before church and she said it was okay.

After church, Mary and I drove out to Dave's house to meet them for the evening of bowling with his church. We had a good time. I got to catch up with some other people that I hadn't seen the last time I was at his church. I bowled one game, but was tired after that so I ended up just watching the others.

Yesterday for Labor Day, Dave and I went to Columbus to visit his cousins. He has those two left on his mom's side of the family and he asked me to go with him. We had a good time and a very long trip back it seemed. We did get back earlier than my mom had expected me. His cousins are very sweet and fun to be with...

I'm really excited about this week of work. Today will be a hectic day because we will not have an agent officially in the office, but tomorrow Bryan starts his day. I'm really excited about getting started and getting the routine set.

Well...I must get ready for work now. Until next time...

Friday, August 31, 2007


First up...the sad news I wrote about last time turned out to be only partly true. My sister wasn't able to come when she was scheduled, but ended up surprising us on Saturday with a visit. It was so nice to see her and the kids. I have to say I didn't get to see her as much as normally though.

This is been a weird week for me...a good one, but weird. On Sunday, Dave and I had a talk and we are seeing each other officially now. We had a talk on Tuesday after dinner with Marisa, Adam and Isaac, that had me a little scared. It's been about three years since my last relationship...and trusting a guy is very hard to do after you have been hurt badly. But we talked and were able to get make it through that patch.

Last night was his bowling night, and I went by after I cleaned the church. I had cleaned part of it on Wednesday night, so I didn't have as much to do. After bowling, we went to get something to eat.

I've got a wedding rehearsal to attend tonight. The girls in the wedding are staying at the lodge where the wedding is being held, as we have to begin getting ready very early for everyone to get completed before the pictures. I'm really excited about my friend Carrie getting married. She has found a really nice guy...who she says is just like me. I think that's why she really likes him, because she and I have been friends for a little over 14 years.

Dave is coming to the wedding then we are going to celebrate his birthday with some friends of his. He told me last night, this is weird for him, because he hasn't really had a "birthday" celebration in a long time. His friends took him out, but it wasn't a big deal.

Sunday is a busy day for me as usual. After church Sunday evening, Dave's church is having a youth get together at the bowling alley. So we are going to go there after church.

Monday if he goes to Columbus he's invited me to go with him. He's got a few relatives up there that want to celebrate his birthday with him. So I'll be meeting the family he has left that day.

Until next time...

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Sad news...

I'm sad today...I just got news that my sister and her family has had to put their visit on hold for now. I was really looking forward to the visit, but we trust God and realize His plans are not always understood...but He's in control and we will trust Him.

Onto other things...I have still be getting up in the mornings to walk. I'm going to test something tonight. I have been sleeping on my futon for the past few weeks maybe. Well...I'm going to sleep on my bed tonight and see if I still wake up at 5:45. It may happen, but it may not...I don't know...I'll let you know the outcome of the experiment.

This morning when I went to the track, I got a text from my friend Mary. Her mom was taken to the hospital with chest pains. They have ruled out that she had a heart attack, but there are still some test results out. Be praying for her.

After work yesterday, the girls of the office got together to send off Kim. She's leaving in two weeks and we wanted to have a get together before she left. She and I worked at Star with each other. Star is a mortgage company. Anyway...when I left the mortgage company we kept in touch and when the owner was ready to retire, she decided to leave. It was a good time for her to get out...and she's been with the Bureau a little over a year. A few weeks ago she got offered a postion with another mortgage company and took the position. So last night we got together for one last party...sorta. I'm sure we will have a few more in the next few weeks.

I've mentioned in earlier blogs that we are in a transition time with agents...Well this morning, Paul, the agent in the office, said that his new office opening date has been moved up four weeks. So he wasn't able to be in the office all he was trying to get the new office ready to go. I pray this change is for the better, but I'm not really sure. I emailed the new agent coming to our office. I hope he will be excited to work with Crystal and myself.

After work tonight, Dave asked me to dinner. We went to Peddlers (I actually made it to the right restaurant this time.) A few weeks ago, he invited me to dinner, and said "Peddler's" but I heard "Subway." Needless to say I have been ribbed about that mistake since then. Anyway...after we ate, he took me to look at a few houses that are for sale. He's looking to buy a house in town with a smaller yard. I don't know for sure if he's going to do this move for sure though. There were some pretty houses, and some really ugly ones too.

I didn't get to go to Curves today...I'll have to go on Thursday, Friday and Saturday to make up for today's missed day.

I hope to get up and walk around a church about two miles from here. I think it would be better to walk closer to home and driving a little over 6 miles to walk at the track. I'll check it out tomorrow and see how I like walking there.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Good day yesterday...

Yesterday, I went to Dave's house for lunch. He was having a few friends over. We had chicken to eat that was neat. It was a good time of fellowship...however, his house guest for the weekend is a little annoying. LOL!!

In the morning service, I ended up singing. I sang "Praise the Lord" which is my cousin Brian's favorite song I sing. It turned out well. I had forgotten to bring the words to church, but sang it okay without messing them up.

After the evening service, we had the first choir practice that we've had in several weeks. It was a good practice. We have a new book we are working to get new songs.

After choir practice I:43 practiced their song for next week. We were thinking of singing "Solid Rock" by 4 Him, but I had forgot the track, but had another song "For All You've Done." We did a few times with the demo, then had in mind of what we wanted to went we will be singing that next week.

After practice we went to Kat's house. I wasn't feeling well, so I left early and came home. I figured I would probably need to get to bed since I have been getting up early. This morning I woke up again without my alarm. I went to the track. It was a good time again this morning.

That's all for now...Until next time...

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Looks like I found it...LOL

Looks like the post I did Saturday and today is finally showing up...not sure what happened...anyway...I'm heading to bed as I'm not sure if I'll be waking up without an alarm or not. Hope your week is good...I'm looking forward to my sister and her family coming for a visit later this week.

Lost a post...

I'm not sure where the post I left yesterday...but it's not showing up. I don't remember what all I said in it, but anyway...I'll start this one and maybe I'll remember some of the stuff I wrote yesterday.

So...I have been getting up for about 6 days without an alarm. I don't know why it's happening, but I feel okay. Yesterday I was up around 4...but was able to go back to sleep because I put some soothing music on...That Avalon "Faith: A Hymns Collection" is amazing. I really think my favorite song is "Total Praise"...however, I do like all the songs on it.

Last night, I went to a wedding with Dave. It was supposed to be just the two of us, but his house guest for the weekend...made an assumption and tagged along. It was cool though. We hung out with a few people from his church. It was a nice wedding...a little long for my taste. It was held on a farm owned by the couple. It was a beautiful place for a wedding. I didn't know the couple very well, but it was still a nice wedding.

I'll be going to another wedding next week with the same friend. He asked last night. This one is at his church, I think. After the wedding we have a birthday party to it will be an eventful day.

Today is church...I don't know if my special music is going to show up or not. She was in New York this weekend, and missed her flight. So I'll have to have something prepared, just in case.

I need to get ready for I'll close for now. I still don't think I have said what I did yesterday...but apparently it wasn't too important. LOL!!!

Saturday, August 11, 2007

A great evening with friends...

I really enjoy hanging out with my friends. Yesterday it started out to be just Sara and I going to dinner then we were going to meet up with Kat and the others at Kat's house around 8ish. the day progressed, we ended up with Kat, Mary, Sammi joining us for dinner. After dinner was over, I needed to go to the mall. While we were there, we went to Lane Bryant...and they were having a sale. I bought a pair of pants for $6.00 including tax. It was great. I really like how they look on me too.

After the trip to the mall, we went back to Kat's house to watch "The Bourne Supremacy." Mary, Sara and I are going to see the new one out in theaters next. We had a good took us awhile to start the movie...we were waiting on Rich, who ended up not showing up, but we understand (sort of...) Dave wasn't able to come either. He was tired after VBS week at his church and he is "brother" sitting for friends of his at church. So he ended up staying at home.

Today, I'm going to be heading to Curves to workout...then I have to go by the office to pick up my dad's birthday present...I keep leaving it there. But I also have to pick up my cellphone charger too. I figure I'll stop by the bank and give the girls a little treat. Last week, one of the girls was joking with me about bringing them a treat on Saturday (they think it's sad they have to work on Saturdays and I get mine off. I think I'll be nice today, since I am going to Flatwoods anyway today.

This evening, I'm going to a wedding with my friend Dave. One of the guys on his bowling team is getting married. With his VBS this week, we haven't been able to do it will be nice to catch up with him.

Tomorrow is church...very busy day for me. After church, I'm going over to Dave's for dinner. I think we are having chicken...but I don't know if he will change his mind like he did the first time he cooked for me, Ben and Kat.

Well...I must get ready to do my errands, so I can get back home to work on things around the house.