Tuesday, January 29, 2008

a few thoughts...

Have you ever really liked someone and they haven't reciprocated any feelings back? Have you ever had a major crush on someone and would give anything to hear them give some sort of input in your life? Has your crush ever been dating someone else and felt they needed to tell you that you can do better?

You may be thinking "why is she asking these questions?...Does she have feelings for someone who is not reciprocating? Does she have a major crush on someone? etc." Well...the answer is not as simple as a yes or no. These thoughts have been brought into my head for two reasons. The first is because a really good friend of mine is heart broken (crying herself to sleep, struggling with the thoughts of being single, etc). The second because I was watching a tv show where two people who used to date went out for the evening together, but not as a "date"...during this evening out, the girl ends up talking to another guy and the guy she came with comes up to her and whispers in her ear..."he's not good enough for you." It's something that the audience watching wants to hear, but she doesn't. She storms out after him and says, "Hey! Don't do that!" He looks back and asks "Do what?" She continues, "He's not good enough for you? I don't want you saying things like that to me, it's not fair to me, and it's not fair to Lindsey" (and Lindsey...is the girl he is currently seeing.)

Even though the audience including me is still pulling for the original guy and girl to be together...I was sitting there feeling proud of her. Why? Because I have been in that situation ... sort of. I was dating this guy who was so not right for me. It got back to me that one of the guys I had had a crush on...said he was glad that things didn't work out for me and this guy. He thought the guy was a jerk and wasn't "good enough for me." It would have been nice to be able to stand up to my former crush and tell him that it doesn't matter what he thinks...but I honestly think I would be mush on the floor ... if he were to tell me in person.

This thought was something I have been thinking about for a week or so. You see there is Someone who knows if a guy is "good enough" for a girl. He knows and has the authority to whisper in my ear and say "DeeJay, he's not good enough for you." What a precious thought! My Father in Heaven knows me well enough ... and the guys pursuing me well enough to know if it's right for us to be together. Therefore, I can be thankful that relationships don't work out, because He's standing there telling me "He's not good enough for you, but I know One who is good enough for you...and this Man is all you need." Now that's something that is encouraging to me...during this single season of my life. Knowing Jesus is there...and He's all I need...and He's the BEST for me.

these are just a few thoughts...

Monday, January 28, 2008

Almost the end of January

Hi there peoples...

Life here has been uneventful for the most part, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something to write.

Over these past four weeks, my young adult Sunday school class has made making some changes in their lives. I've been pretty excited about seeing the outcome. This year instead of doing "Resolutions" we decided to make goals. I know it's probably the same, but I tell you I have only kept one of my resolutions I made...and that was as a joke...hoping I would break it. Trying some reserse psychology...but that didn't work. LOL!!!

God really prepared us for these changes over the course of last year. After our study on spiritual gifts, we began studying the spiritual disciplines. It seemed that when we began implementing them changes in our lives had occured. It's been neat to see how God has been allowing me to hear things more than once. For instance, last year I was able to visit a church in the area and the preacher spoke on the subject of prayer and it was a different perspective than what my pastor and our Sunday school teacher had brought to the table.

We went through some changes toward the end of the year with our Sunday school teacher leaving and the original teacher taking the class back again. That has been really good for us too...because we have seen growth in our teacher since he first began the class. Currently we are studying the book "Facing Your Giants" by Max Lucado. The study guide has been very helpful in pointing us to look into our lives and find ways of applying what we have read in the Scripture references of David's life and the book chapters as well.

This afternoon I got an email from one of my friends who began the goals with us at the beginning of the year. She was so excited that we were in week 4 of this...and she was still excited about it. I began to think about past years when I did "resolutions" how by week 4 I usually had forgot what I even had as a resolution.

Some excitement still ahead...in February we are having our missions conference. I'm really excited this year because one of the missionaries coming is Rick & Carol Hudson. They were our missionary host to Mexico back in 2006. We began supporting them after our trip to Mexico...and our young adult class is one of the reasons we are able to support him. We collect an offering each week and we have a monthly total we try to get collected. It was exciting for us to get to start that this year. Rick promised us...that if our church began supporting him, he would come with bells on...so we are really excited for this missions conference.

In April, we have the annual Women of Faith conference. This is a special time of year, because one of the girls in our "gang" became a really good friend after spending the weekend with her at WOF. This years theme is Infinite Grace. I'm excited because not only is Natalie Grant going to be at the one we are attending, but also Nicole C. Mullen. Most of you know I really like the song "One Touch (Press)" by her.

Well...like I said earlier this has not been too eventful...but I figure I would be able to find something to write about ... LOL!!! I'm sure I'll be writing as the year continues...I'll try to do better, because my mom really likes reading my blogs...even though most of them she already has heard the information. LOL!!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Random stuff...

Song of the moment

My new song of the moment is "One Touch (Press)" by Nicole C. Mullen. I really like this song. The words are really touching. I have ordered the soundtrack for me to sing. The first time I heard this song I was sitting in a car of an old friend. I sat there and was struggling with some issues of my own...my friend and I had talked for awhile and he said, "listen to this song...it's really good." I want to enclose the lyrics so you can see. If you listen to the song you can click on this link and it should come up on my myspace page, www.myspace.com/deejay672003 If that doesn't work you can find it on at www.youtube.com and search for Nicole C. Mullen "One Touch" there's an actual video and also a live performance...I prefer the video. It's really a great song.

One Touch (Press)

Been ostracized for 12 years
I'm used to being alone
Spent everything I had
And now it's gone
I'm used to being put down
My issues tell it all
My only hope is anchored
In this fall

If I could just touch
The hem of His garment
I know I'd be made whole
If I could just press
My way through this madness
His love would heal my soul
If only one touch

So many people calling
How could He ever know
That just a brush of Him
Would stop the flow
If he knew would He rebuke me
Or shame me to the crowd
Well I'm desperate 'cause it's never
Or it's now

If I could just touch
The hem of His garment
I know I'd be made whole
If I could just press
My way through this madness
His love would heal my soul

And then suddenly He turned around
He said somebody has unleashed my power
Well, frightened and embarrassed I bowed
You see I told Him of my troubles
And how…

The hem of His garment
And I know I've been made whole
And how I had pressed
My way through this madness
And His love has healed my soul

Then with one word He touched
The hem of my garment
And you know I've been made whole
And somehow He pressed
His way through my madness
And His love has healed my soul

I tell you He touched me
He reached way down and touched me
When no one else would touch me
Yeah Jesus sure enough touched me
And I know I've been made whole

Stuff God is showing me...

I'm reading two different books by Max Lucado. The first is for Sunday school class called "Facing Your Giants." The second is "A Love Worth Giving." I was reading the latter during lunch for some light reading (I know you may be thinking..."Light reading??" Yeah, I think that too when I get into it sometimes. In the chapter on "love is kind." He recalled this story of the women, who was ostracized for a dozen years. That's a long time for someone to be alone. I sat there reading about this woman who didn't have anyone during that time. I began to see my selfishness. I have a great group of friends and wonderful family who are with me. So even though I'm single...I'm not alone...and even if I didn't have this great group of friends and family to support me...I'd still not be alone, because I have GOD with me.

There's a quote from "Facing Your Giants" by Max Lucado that says, "You'll never know that Jesus is all you need, until Jesus is all you have." That's a powerful statement when you are in the wilderness.

This brings me to a verse of Scripture that I learned as a young person...Hebrews 13:5...most people have heard the latter part of the verse "I will never leave you nor forsake you", but if you look at the entire verse it goes with the situation that I was writing about ... selfishness of wanting something that I didn't have. The entire verse is "Let your conduct be without covetousness, and be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."(NKJV) I really enjoy reading The Message because it usually puts it simply. "Don't be obsessed with getting more material things. Be relaxed with what you have. Since God assured us, 'I'll never let you down, never walk off and leave you,'" It's good to know that He's all I need, and He's not leaving anytime soon...therefore I need to be content with what He's giving me. Hallelujah!

That's all for now...

Thursday, January 17, 2008

God is in control...

God is in control. I'm so thankful how He will sometimes let us see a reason for why things change. Last year, I heard that the eye doctor I went to fired his entire office staff at the end of the day. I thought how wrong he was to do that, as many of them had worked for him for several years. Because of him doing that, it made me not want to use him as an eye doctor...plus the fact that his office was out of the way. I have two great friends who work for an eye doctor. This is an "actual" eye doctor...not one of those eye doctor's from (insert major store here)...he does a thorough exam on the eyes. Not only do you get pressure test for glaucoma...there is also pictures of the inside of the eye.

I want to say...I'm thankful for the job that I have because it allows me to have insurance that will pay for one eye exam a year. Meaning...I only have to pay the co-pay. Anyway...during the exam they saw some signs that they wanted to check further. They said I was a "glaucoma suspect."

Well...after taking the test and re-taking it...I got the results yesterday and I have a GREAT left eye, but my right eye has the beginning stages of glaucoma. So now I have drops that go into my eyes twice a day (one in the morning and one at night).

God is good. He has plans for our lives and as long as we are following His lead, we will continue on the path He has chosen for us. I'm thankful God lead me to a different doctor this year...so we could catch this at the beginning stage.

Until next time...

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

New music from Group 1 Crew...

Those of you who know me...know that music is a passion of mine...especially Christian music. I love being able to share God's love to those through lyric and song. Christian music is a soundtrack to my life. Sometimes when hearing a song for the 100th time I can remember the very first time that I heard it. Well...I can't wait to listen to this song for the 100th time and remember when I first heard it. It was while watching one of my favorite shows "One Tree Hill." This show is known for having music as part of the script as the words the writers are being paid to write.

While watching the episode titled "Racing Like A Pro ", I was listening to the music being played...the words that caught me were "Lord though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death, I'm not scared cause Your holding my breath." I liked it, but it didn't seem like it was a secular song. At the end of the episode, CW will play a clip of the song and say who the artist is. Well...I saw that the artist name was "Group 1 Crew." I had never heard of them, but I got on amazon.com and saw that the label company is "Word Entertainment"...which is a Contemporary Christian label. I was so excited. I know that life is hard...but God is good...and He can be trusted with all our problems...

What is even sweeter...they are coming to Huntington, WV in March for the Winter Jam tour. I'm definitely going to be there.

I got online and got the words to the song...so I'd like to share them here.

"Forgive Me"

Father, I'm going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain't getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne

I've spent so many nights wonderin' when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I'm running the race but it seems too hard to win
I'm sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning

I'm calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart's been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home

The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can't take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home

Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I'm not scared cause You're holding my breath
I only fear that I don't have enough time left
To tell the world that there's no time left, Lord please
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I'm not scared cause You're holding my breath
I only fear that I don't have enough time left
To tell the world that there's no time left

I've come to terms that I'm burning both sides of the rope
And I'm hoping that self-control would kick in before I'm choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I'll never make it I'm not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn't do it I would lose it there's no point to the fight
And I'm writing this song, for the people who don't belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that's filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It's annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn't pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there's no crying
I'm dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul

Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There's go to be more
Than this life I know
But still I'm here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through