Saturday, March 20, 2010

Tobymac's new CD is really of the songs on it that is becoming my favorites to listen to is "Changed Forever." Not only do I like it musically, but lyrically the words had grabbed my attention. It reminds me of Saul's salvation experience on the road to Damascus (Acts 9). The Message Bible states it this way...

When he got to the outskirts of Damascus, he was suddenly dazed by a bling flash of light. As he fell to the ground, he heard a voice: "Saul, Saul, why are you out to get me?" He said, "Who are you, Master?" "I am Jesus, the One you're hunting down. I want you to get up and enter the city. In the city you'll be told what to do next." His companions stood there dumbstruck -- they could hear the sound, but couldn't see anyone -- while Saul, picking himself up off the ground, found himself stone blind. They had to take him by the hand and lead him into Damascus. He continued blind for three days. He ate nothing, drank nothing...

So Ananias went and found the house, placed his hands on blind Saul, and said, "Brother Saul, the Master sent me, the same Jesus you saw on your way here. He sent me so you could see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit." No sooner were the words out of his mouth than something like scales fell from Saul's eyes -- he could see again! He got to his feet, was baptized, and sat down with them to a hearty meal.

It is interesting how God approached Saul. He blinded him for three days, and to see Saul's response of neither eating or drinking. God is wanting us to empty ourselves of us, and allow Him to fill us. This experience will change us forever.

The words to the song are below the link. It is a little wild in the music so I know my mom will not appreciate the music style, but the lyrics are below to help understand the song.

I'd heard the name, but never seen Your face
Been touched before but never Your embrace
Had a soul to lose and the world to gain
But then You whispered my name

And I heard the truth but never from Your lips
Bought the lies and many counterfeits
Dreamed my dreams, but they were never in color
And I searched for You and many others

I was down for the count (for the count)

Then I saw Your face
Just a glimpse of Your face, and my whole world changed
Then I saw Your face
And I was changed forever (Changed forever now)
Then I saw Your face
One glimpse of Your face, it's a whole new game
Then I saw Your face, and I was changed forever (Yours forever now)

If I could reach the stars, I could touch the sky
And if I spread my wings, I could almost fly
I had everything paper could buy
I was lost in my disguise

And if I played my role, they would feel my style
If I bought the night they would buy my smile
I've been runnin' this game for a million miles
Believe' my own lies

I was down, I was out

Then I saw Your face
Just a glimpse of Your face, and my whole world changed
Then I saw Your face
And I was changed forever (I'm Yours forever now)
Then I saw Your face
One glimpse of Your face, it's a whole new game
Then I saw Your face, and I was changed forever (Yours forever now)

Then I saw Your face

I was blinded by my selfish dreams
Everything ain't what it seems
From inside to out, there ain't no doubt
I've been changed

Nothing short of satistfaction
Your love caused a change reaction
I can tell you this much I felt your touch
And I'm changed

When I was down for the count,
Your love surrounded me
Blink of an eyes
And I saw my destiny

Changed, rearranged 'cause I couldn't maintain
The heart it took to even stay in the game
One look in Your eyes even I realized
A fellow like me had been put down to size
To be built up in a better way, Your way
Yahweh, ain't about to fade
Bombastic, ain't no way to mask it
I saw Your face, and my old ways blasted

Then I saw Your face
Just a glimpse of Your face, and my whole world changed
Then I saw Your face, and I was changed forever (Yours forever now)
Then I saw Your face
One glimpse of Your face it's a whole new game
Then I saw Your face, and I was changed forever (I'm Yours forever now)

Friday, March 12, 2010

A rough week...

It has been a very rough week for me...but one thing I can say is that God's strength is what has gotten me through it. Last Saturday night, I was asked to go to the hospital to sing for a man who was dying. I didn't make it through the song at all. I cried as those who were saying goodbye to a very special man in their life. It was a difficult situation, but as mentioned in my last post, I believe it was Jesus holding me through it.

Sunday was a long day, just because it was Sunday. With me being the custodian, I am there early for both services and usually stay late for both of them too. I ended up staying during the board meeting as I was getting the church ready for the funeral. It wasn't too bad, but I did run the vacuum and got the communion table moved. Monday I was going to bowl out for the week, because I was going to be working that night for Jessica, but ended up working for her on Monday night instead. She was able to get off on Thursday, so I didn't have to miss bowling. Since working Monday it was just really a tiring day.

Tuesday after work, I got off work and went to the church to get ready for the funeral. I got the sound system on so it could be playing music as the family visited. I also changed and got ready to sing again. I would be singing the same song for the funeral. With many prayers being lifted for me, God provided the strength to sing without crying. It was a beautiful service...with very good memories and stories of this amazing man who was very special to our church family. He will be missed.

Wednesday is pretty busy for me as when I leave work I usually head straight to church to get ready for Bible study. It was a good Bible study...another lesson about the demand of knowing you are saved. Knowing for sure that you are trusting in Jesus and Jesus alone.

Thursday, I began to feel very tired and as the day went the worse I felt. I went to bowl anyway and didn't do well at all. I had not even gotten my average the first game.

This morning I woke up with a sore throat and coughing and sneezing. I didn't have a fever, but my voice was a little hoarse. As the work day went, my voice cleared a little, but then towards the evening, it began to get hoarse again. My friend Kat emailed me and asked if I wanted her to sing for me this Sunday morning, so we are changing days to sing. I will take her evening during mission conference and she will take my morning. I'm thankful to have friends who are willing to fill in when I'm unable to fulfill my duties.

Tonight, I went shopping. I needed to get a new pair of work shoes. I got some sketchers on sale, then I got a pair of shoes for working out on sale too. I also bought my swimsuit for the beach. It's cute. I was pleased with it. I'd like to have gotten the shorts I saw too, but denied myself.'s getting late and my eyes are getting tired...I think the cold is setting in for the evening. Until next time...

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Hold me Jesus...

My sister Leah just bought the Big Daddy Weave CD with "Hold Me Jesus" a cover of a song written by Rich Mullins. I really believe that God brought that song into my life again today to remind me that Jesus is there to hold me when things are going crazy and out of control.

Yesterday, I got a call from a good friend who's husband (Meredith Johnson) has been in the hospital for several weeks. She asked me to get some lyrics to a song that was very special to him. So I went home and got them for her and emailed them to her. She also had mentioned that she may ask me to sing them for him before they had planned to turn the machines off. I had written in the email that she just needed to call day or night and I would come.

Tonight around 7:15 I got the call to go by the hospital to sing. I knew it was going to be hard, but I didn't realize how hard until I was in the moment. I had downloaded that CD to my ipod and was listening to "Hold Me Jesus" all the way over to the hospital. I was fine, until I got there...that's when I really needed to have Jesus holding me. Meredith's daughter was there...and she is unsaved at this moment. God allowed me to say a few things and a few minutes later Cheryl and I were alone in the room with Meredith and she told me thanks for sharing. She said it was getting hard for her to know what to say in the situation...I seriously believe God gave me the words to say to encourage them during this time.

I think the line that I relate to is "Surrender don't come natural to me...I'd rather fight You for something I don't really want...Than to take what You give that I need..." I can't understand why I fight God for things that I really don't want...because He has given me what I need already. There is another line of how it's finally hitting home...

"And the Salvation Army band is playing this hymn...And Your grace rings out so deep...It makes my resistance seem so thin."

In the Big Daddy Weave version, they sing two lines from the hymn "I Surrender All" (which is one of my favorite hymns). When it's mixed with this song, it really makes it understandable...Jesus is just waiting with open arms for us to climb on His lap and just wait in His arms for those things to work out. When you surrender all...our resistance is thin and we can allow Jesus to be our Prince of Peace. That's where I am now...resting and allow Jesus to hold me.

May you rest in Jesus' arms...The Prince of Peace.

Tuesday, March 02, 2010

You Found Me...

I have a new song of the moment..."You Found Me" by Big Daddy Weave. This is such a fun song about our salvation experience. Have a listen...words are below.

OWNED BY WMG (Warner Music Group)

I saw 3 AM come and go again
Another sleepless night,
Thanks to living my own way
All my great ideas
I've regretted most of them
But that was back long before the day --

When I saw a flash of light
And I heard the sound
Of a voice like thunder shake the ground
It was the first time I remember
Ever feeling my heart beat
And the arms that gripped me felt like grace
And I realized in their embrace
To be held so tight
I've never felt so free
Also known as
The day that You found me

My whole life has changed
Ever since the day You came
The way I see
The things I want, it's everything
Some may call it strange
I don't care what people say
I knew You were the only way


I've never know a love like this
You've captured my heart
And You brought the
Sweetest peace to my life
Brought me into the light
Now I'm all Yours, Jesus
Draw me into You
I don't think that I could
Ever be the same...
Who would want to be anyway --