So I finally broke down and purchased the rest of the Lecrae CD from itunes which was cool because I got it cheaper since I had purchased two songs already. This morning while getting ready I listened to most of it, and when I heard the song "I Love You" it reminded me of a conversation at church with Jimmy Nichols.
His wife had given me their prayer card and bookmark. He covered his face (only showing his wife and son) and said, now if you look it this way it's better. I had looked closer and mentioned how his son had grown into a nice looking young man. He began to tell me that he was taller than him and they made him sit down :) I asked how old and he told me 16. Where has the time gone? Anyway...I said, "well, too young." He laughed and said, "What are you now...21?" I said, "23...well really 41." He said a name of someone he knew and his wife said, "Noooo." Do you know how in one word you can get a huge picture of someone or something? Well I heard it in that one word. I told her thank you for having my back.
We laughed a little more about it, and with all seriousness he told me I was doing the right thing, waiting for the guy that God wants for you. Reminded me of how God made Adam and put him to sleep then made Eve and when He woke Adam...he saw everything he dreamed of in Eve. Reminded me that this is my nap time...to be doing what God wants of me, and when it's time God will awake me and when I see (insert the person's name) to run as fast as I can away from him.
We all laughed, but in reality that is what I'm to be doing....sleeping. You know last night it hit me. When I'm sleeping, I'm not thinking about what I'm going to be having to eat or getting the details of my next Zumba routine. I just sleep, rest and dream. I may dream of eating and doing Zumba, but it's not something I plan to do while I sleep. That's what I'm dreaming about...
I think it's interesting that when I'm waiting on God's best for me, how it's always on my mind when I'm awake...I need to think of it that I'm sleeping. If I dream about a particular type of guy, then I need to remember it's a dream while I'm sleeping. The following song reminded me of the type of guy I'm dreaming about. It's just a picture with nothing on the screen, so fill free to just play and follow the words. Some of the descriptions he uses I don't understand, but you can get the picture of the type of Christian guy I'm praying for. I want a guy who loves God with all his heart, soul, mind and strength :) When God wakes me up, I'll see him...I'll see him when it's time :)
Lecrae - I Love You
Yeah, sometimes we get so addicted to self that, you don't realize you hurting
other people, specially the people you care the most about.
I love ya cross my heart and hope to live to make you smile,
Cause I don't
deserve for all the times you held me down,
Listen to me now. I love you
Ya know I had to do a love song
To let the whole world know bout
my love jones ,
Love sticks is what I told the docter,
We could be more
like Sho Baraka,
But we all moors and we been that
And when I said I do,
I meant that
Its trip that, you let me lead you
Cause I'm a mess and
sometimes I need you
And I need you, to understand
That I'm dying
everything tryin to be a better man,
I put that on my momma,
the way you play your part through my drama
Long nights, long flights ,trips
Ya keep my head up when it was hanging down
Down like four
flats on a lack
I let you down and you still keep coming
Girl I love ya cross my heart and hope to live to make you
Cause I don't deserve for all the times you held me down,
me now. I love you girl.
Out here trying to save the world,
forget about my baby girl
And baby girl, you so tight its true to me
sometimes I wonder why you fool with me
Cause foolishly I'm prone to hurt
Call you grace cause I don't deserve you
I recall cold nights, no
lights, low dough nights
You ain't fussin you was there the whole night sayin
So faithful, Far as beef yeah we done had a plateful
we ate it up and we made it up
Cause our view of the Lord wasn't great
No divorce cause what God brought together,
We will never tear
apart, gonna fight and never let up.
And when I get up I'm back down on my
Thank God my rib's the best part of me.
Girl I love
ya cross my heart and hope to live to make you smile,
Cause I don't deserve
for all the times you held me down,
Listen to me now. I love you
All the fellas out there in the world
If your lady love God
and you gotta good girl
Stay wit her, pray wit her, take her on a
Tell her you appreciate....
How she love me, how she cares
And how shes every woman every where,
And baby I'm sorry for all the days
I let you down
But I got something to say, I love you girl