Sunday, November 23, 2014

God has been busy today!

How many times have I've gone through a day and actually stopped to see how many prayers God answered for me?  Let me tell you this...Today has been one of those days. 

I work for a hospital organization and our duties require us to be "on call" for the urgent care centers during the weekend.  One day is all for two hours we are required to be available to work if they need us.  This has been in existence for about a year now.  Well, today was a day that I was called into work for them.  I didn't complain at all. I didn't want to go, but I also didn't complain about having to get coverage for all the positions I do at church.  I made the appropriate calls and then headed there.  

I got into the building and said hello to a few people, and walked into the office where I was to be working, only to find a fellow POC working too.  We both asked what each of us were doing there.  She was scheduled, I was called into work that day.  I called the supervisor who informed me that it was the wrong position that was needed.  So she said it would be fine to go. 

I left and headed to church which is about 4 blocks away.  So excited to be able to go with the rest of my day as planned.  I had texted two friends to be praying that I may not have to stay.  

Once I made it to church, I went to my Sunday school class and joined them to hear the rest of the lesson, then we practiced our song and ate a yummy snack.  We headed to the worship service and I began picking out the music for the morning. I wanted to sing about God's attributes.  As I was so thankful to be there at church this morning.  We finished the morning singing the familiar children chorus "God is so Good!"

After church was over, I hadn't seen the treasurer to get my check and wasn't sure if she had it and just didn't get a chance to get to me.  But later I found it before we went to the movie so I was able to get it cashed and put some money in the bank and get gas in my car.  Yet another praise, as I was going to have to do some budgeting to see how much popcorn I would get for the movie!

We made it to the theater and before heading there, I asked my momma to pray for the youth leader to be able to get the money back from the movie tickets. I had already prayed about it, and knew that God was really working things out.  How wonderful when we went to the theater and explained the situation, she was able to refund the tickets that used. 

It has been a great day to be able to see how God is working clearly.  Sometimes He has a tendency to work behind the scenes and we may not see His hand doing anything. Sorta like the "Footprints" poem.  We see that there is only one set of footprints during our hard times...and it was in those times that God carried us.  

Today has also been some time to pray about goals for the upcoming year.  And during tonight's service, I came up with one that I'm really hoping to do.  I used to memorize scripture as a kid, and I say it's hard now, but it really isn't.  I can learn words to songs and quotes to movies, but it's because I'm putting my time in them.  I know I can memorize scripture...and I'm going to begin with Psalm 119. is the LONGEST Psalm, but I believe God wants to teach me something about the Bible that I haven't learned yet.  

God is good...all the time...all the time...God is good!

Wednesday, October 08, 2014

Really? How desperate do you think I am?

So over the weekend, I found a fan page on Instagram from someone who had read my blog. At first it sorta creeped me out, but once the person admitted to being behind it I thought well cool. Someone reads my blog and actually enjoys it. 

Well that was where the creepiness began. The person behind the fan site has posted pics over two weeks of a boy that looked no more older than 17 years old. At first even the comments felt they came from a kid who just liked to read blogs. Then it turned strange. 

This person ended up telling me that he was 27 years old. Gave me a name and told me that at his church he leads the music. He said his favorite food was Italian and his favorite restaurant was Olive Garden. He told me several more things that were very similar to things I had wrote in my blog. Favorite tv show, favorite singer was Michael O'Brien, etc. 

Amazing how this guy would think that I would be falling at his every word and totally just be his "girlfriend" and want to date him. What? Do I want to date myself??? No I want someone who will compliment me (not with compliments, but some differences are good. Not total opposites but definitely not the same as me. 

So anyway as the conversation continues. I have caught him in a lie. I emailed the pastor of the church where he said he led music. So the pastor had never heard of him. I confronted the person and they said some more things to try to cover the lie he had told me. 

So rules for dating me.

1. DON'T LIE to a girl. Tell the truth, even if you think that she may not like you. Why? Because if a girl (especially me) catches you in a lie, it's a red flag. 

2. DON'T be pushy. Getting to know someone takes time. In my life, I have been single more than I have been in relationships. I know I can do the single life. I have been surviving or should I say living each day with no major problems. I know I can do single. I still want to get married to someone that God has been preparing for me, but I'm willing to wait. 

3. I have one request for men who will want to date me. It's something special that I came up with after hearing Dr. Doug Weiss talk about dating. It will be revealed for guys who want to pursue a relationship with me. If you can't do the request, then a date will definitely not happen. 

I have to say I'm thankful that he did do the right thing about taking the fan site down, but the one request to be able to date me...he didn't do. At least not the right way. So yet another red flag. 

Listen guys, if you are just looking for a girl who wants a good time...look somewhere else. 

I'm not a girl who is so vulnerable that I just will fall for any guy. I want a KINGDOM MAN. You don't know what that is...then don't try to pursue me. God has provided me with an amazing group of people who are in my life to help me seek after Him. My goal in life now is not to find a mate, but to seek after His kingdom. 

Some guys may think that because I'm older that I'm desperate to find someone, but the older I get he more I don't want to settle for just a guy, but I want a kingdom man who seeks after God. Until God chooses to show me this special guy, I will continue to just keep my heart in His hands. 

Monday, October 06, 2014

Day 15 - Day 30 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

I have been super busy working on a project for my nephew's 1 year birthday present.  So I wasn't able to finish this project, however I did get a chance to work on the project, but just didn't post my Thankful things!

Here we go...

Day 15 - I'm thankful for my weakness.  It's because I'm weak that Jesus can shine through me.  It's His strength that gets me through each day of challenges as well as the good days too.

Day 16 - I'm thankful for disappointments.  God doesn't give us EVERY that we want, but He gives us what is best for us. So when I face disappointments, I have to remember that it's because what I think is what I need...maybe isn't what I need and I have to remember that God's got this!

Day 17 - I'm thankful for the ways that God shows me out of temptation that come my way.  There is a way to not give into the sinful things that may bombard us.  

Day 18 -  I'm thankful for patience.  I know this is something that we are not to pray for because if we pray for them, God will allow trials to come our way.  But I know when my mom was in the hospital and I was concerned about how I would react to some of her questions. I wanted to be sure I was patient with her. I asked my sister to pray for patience as I helped with her care.  To not be frustrated when I didn't understand what she wanted to tell me. I still am able to ask different questions to get around to what she wants - which is good :) 

Day 19 - I'm thankful for new blessings.  There is a song by Laura Story called "Blessings."  This song as a line in it that hits me EVERY time. 
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

Remember that God sees the bigger picture.  Maybe He hasn't given you what you are praying for because He has something better for you...or that what you are praying for could cause distraction in your life and your relationship with Him!

Day 20 - I'm thankful for being homesick. This earth is not my home.  I'm a child of the King and I am awaiting for my real home - in Heaven.  My dad passed away in 2012.  I miss him every day and the more that I live my life here on earth, the more I long for my place in Heaven.  

The last 10 days of September were about the things I'm thankful for as a new creation - because I'm a christian!

Day 21 - my new creation - II Corinthians 5:17 - God makes all things new.  Yes, I still have my earthly body, but I have a new creation ... one that God sees as perfect.  Yes I will struggle with my fleshly desires, but I have God on my side and His strength is perfect.

Day 22 - my new comforter - the Holy Spirit was promised by Jesus in John 14.  He tells his disciples that He is leaving, but is sending a comforter for them.  We are included in this too!  Acts chapter 2 is where the Holy Spirit is sent.  The Holy Spirit is with me.  He prays for me when I'm unable to pray - Romans 8:26.

Day 23 - the mercy & grace that God has given me.  I know who I am.  I'm not worthy of a Savior.  But God gives mercy and grace and bestows it on those who accept his gift of salvation.  

Day 24 - my new desire - to be like Jesus.  I fail in the goal of being like Jesus, but my desire is the same.  I want to be like Him!

Day 25 - my light - I love the song "Let there be light" by Andy Mineo.  I was living in darkness until Jesus saved me.  I have a testimony about living in darkness, but Jesus showed me the way and now I can let my light shine to others.  Just as a city on the hill "Matt. 5:16"

Day 26 - my new communication - prayer.  Oh how I'm thankful for prayer.  If there is nothing else that I can do, I can pray for people.  I may not be able to give people my time, but I can pray for them. I can pray anywhere, anytime. I don't have to wait until a certain time during the day or week. I can even wake up at night and pray.

Day 27 - my new goal - live intentionally - I want to stop chasing after worldly things and redefine success as biblical success.  I want to make choices intentionally to bring me closer to God.

Day 28 - my new song - I sing because I want to bring glory to His name.  I love being able to sing at church. It's one of the ways I express by love to Him.

Day 29 - my new message - It's all about the gospel.  The death, burial and resurrection of Jesus.  He's the reason why I'm here.  I'm to be praise His name and proclaiming the gospel to others.  Romans 1:16

Day 30 - my new identity - I'm an alien - in this world, but not of it.  I have a residence in Heaven :) 

thanks for sparing me the lateness of this blog.  I can't wait to finish the project for my nephew.  Maybe for November I can do a photo Thankful challenge. 

Until next time.  


Sunday, September 14, 2014

Day 13 & Day 14 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Day 13 - I want to be thankful for tiredness.  God made our bodies to be able to tell when we need rest.  In fact, Elohim rested on the 7th day of creation.  So I'm thankful that we get to have a time of rest.  I enjoy my time at rest.

Day 14 - I'm thankful for tears.  Sometimes we take tears for granted, and want to stop crying, but my mom is unable to cry now.  Since her stroke, she hasn't been able to shed tears. She has been close, to crying, but hasn't been able to shed tears.  I don't like crying in front of people, but being opened to crying, can be cleansing for a person.  Tears can come when happy too!  Those are my favorite tears, but sometimes the sad tears need to come too.

Friday, September 12, 2014

Day 12 #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Today, I'm thankful for broken hearts.  
I know that may sound strange to some people.  At the time of the broken heart, I didn't like it, but each of my relationships that have ended, have drawn me closer to God.  God healed my heart and He's holding it until He brings that special man to me.  I'm thankful that I can trust God with my heart.  God knows me better than anyone, because He created me.  Being thankful to Elohim this month has gotten me to think about different things that God used to create me.  Yes, He knit me in my mother's womb, but He's still working on me to be more like Jesus.  And He has used my broken heart to experience the love that He has for me.

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Day 11 #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

I want to thank Elohim for how He is created me to be.  To do that...He may use trials and tests in my life to make me to be more like Jesus.  It's tough to go through trials, but the bible states to "Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have it's perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." Today I want to be thankful for body aches.  Why body aches? Because the aches that our bodies experience help us to know how much we have pushed our bodies. Also the types of aches that are experienced can help us to know when we need rest. I experience some pulled muscles when I do Zumba. I have to remember to watch how I do the moves to keep from pulling the muscles.  It's something that I have think about specifically.  

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Don't let Satan distract my focus

I have been learning about keeping my focus on God, where it is supposed to be anyway.  I learned a new lesson about this in my life this week.  The last couple of weeks God had brought to my attention that the reason I was having bad days at work, was because I wasn't focused on God and focused on my circumstances.  I have to say, this lesson is way bigger than my work has become a lesson in my single life as well.

Being a single person, is something I am used to being.  I have never experience life as a married person, so singleness is all I know.  

This week, I was able to listen to a message from Dr. Tony Evans about "Fasting for Mates."  I know his message focus was on fasting, but something that he said during his message really hit me and got me to study for and have some conversations with God about it.

In Genesis 2:9, it talks about the trees in the Garden of Eden, "Out of the ground the LORD God caused to grow every tree that is pleasing to the sight and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil." Later in chapter 2, verses 16 & 17 state, "The LORD God commanded the man, saying, "From any tree of the garden you may eat freely; but from the tree of knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat from it you will surely die."

Now, something that was mentioned in the sermon I was listening to was..."don't let Satan tempt you with the one tree in the garden that as a single person you shouldn't partake in, focus on the other trees that God has allowed to be experienced." Basically when people ask me about my singleness they focus on the fact that I'm a virgin and they will ask how I'm able to hold my stand in temptations.  I'm thankful that God has helped me to focus on the other trees in the garden instead of the fact that I don't have sex.  But as I was talking with God, I even got to the fact that in my life singleness is one tree in my life.  I have many other trees that I can put my focus toward.  I'm thankful for the fact that God has helped me to realize this fact.  I'm able to focus on the other trees in my life instead of focusing the singleness tree.

How many times in our life is God using those other areas in our live to bring us closer to Him, but we are so focused on the one tree that Satan is using to distract us?  I know in my life, I have allowed those distractions, but getting a reminder of this lesson has been a learning experience.  

Day 9 & Day 10 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Day 9 - my heart.  I'm thankful for my heart.  It's an organ that is able to pump blood throughout my body.  I'm thankful to be able to have it healthy enough to allow me to teach Zumba. I love Zumba and it keeps my heart healthy too!

Day 10 - my waist line.  I'm thankful that my waist line is getting smaller.  It's not perfect, but I'm able to see an hour glass figure.  I began my fitness and healthy living in 2011. I was able to see a big difference. I still have a lot of work to do, but I'm still trying to work on it.  It's the little differences that help me to keep it up!

Monday, September 08, 2014

Day 7 & Day 8 #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Day 7 - I'm thankful for my ears.  I may not have the best hearing, but I'm able to hear a lot of things.  I love listening to music, and hearing praises sung to God.  I also love the shape of my ears. I don't have ears that are too big or shaped in a weird way. They match my head. 

Day 8 - I'm thankful for my legs. I really like my lower legs, because you can feel the muscle in them.  My thighs are not the best part of my body, but I'm working on them too.

Saturday, September 06, 2014

Day 5 & Day 6 #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

For Day 5 - I am thankful for my brain.  It's one of the important organs, I use it a lot and take it for granted.  One of the exciting ways I do use it, is teaching Zumba.  I have to remember choreography, cuing, and think moving different parts of my body doing different things at the same time.  One that I find difficult while teaching is remember my left is their right.  When I teach I usually have people begin with their right side (so mirroring them, I'm using my left side).  Most of my choreography I learned using my right side now I am relearning the choreography backwards.  It can be fun at times in my class.

Day 6 - I'm thankful for my laugh.  I love being able to laugh...even when life is crazy and stressful...laughter is good for us.  Proverbs 17:22a states "A joyful heart is good medicine..."  When your heart is joyful, it can shine on your face with laughter.  

Last week, was a very stressful week for me at work.  After I got my focus back on God where it belongs, I was able to laugh. One of the nurses mentioned my laughter on Friday. She said, "Its so good to hear you laugh again."  Laughter can help moods of others around us.  So spread the laughter.  Share that smile.  You never know how it will help others when they need it.  

Elohim! You are my Creator.  You have created me in a special way to bring honor and glory to You.  Thank You for creating my brain.  Thank You for helping me to work it out while teaching Zumba to others.  Thank You for my laughter and being able to share it with others....Amen!

Thursday, September 04, 2014

Day 4 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

For day 4, I want to say I'm thankful for my nose.  I really love the shape of my nose.  It isn't crooked and it's even on both sides.  The holes are not too big or too little.  
I'm also thankful that I'm able to smell...even though there are some things I don't want to smell.  I've heard about Chris August's accident and how it has affected his smell. It's something that I have taken for granted...but doing this Thankful Challenge, I want to be thankful of those little things that we may not think about a lot. 

Wednesday, September 03, 2014

Day 3 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Today, I want to thank God for my hair.  I'm a girl and I definitely have had some pretty bad hair days...however...over the years I have learned to love my hair and work with it.  Some days that means wearing my hair up and out of the way.  Other days its when I work with it, by curling it and letting it do what it wants. So I'm posting some picture of my favorite styles I have had over the years.

 Yes, this photo is of me as a little kid, but I love the color of my blonde hair.  As I grew older, it got darker. 

I have had my hair short and long.  This was one of my favorite cuts.  I had taken a picture of Rhianna to the salon and the girl cut my shoulder length hair to this short length.  So glad to know that I can do a short or long cut

This is one of my favorite pictures of my curls.  I was thankful to have a great hair day for this photo shoot.  My curls did everything that I wanted it to do.  

I also really like wearing it straight on days that it works well with me. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.  For instance today, I ended up with my hair on top of my head in a bun, but I worked with it and went with it.  I have learned don't fight with your hair.  

I'm also one that doesn't like to use a hair dryer.  Since I do curl my hair (usually with curling iron), I don't want to add damage with the unnecessary heat.  But more recently I have purchased some new things to work with to curl my hair without heat.  That way I can stop doing damage to my hair.  

I also have learned to appreciate my hair because God made each of us uniquely.  I have a friend who is bald. Seriously just shaved his head several years ago and he looks normal.  In fact if he had hair now he would like weird.  But if I were bald, I would look weird.  I have a couple of knots on my head and if I'm thankful for my hair, I can be better at taking care of it and keeping it healthy.

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

Day 2 - #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

For the month of September, I have chosen to thank the Lord for different things that I appreciate.  Some people will find faults in how they look, but I'm choosing to be appreciative of different things.  

Today I want to be thankful for my smile.  I have had people to tell me that my smile is the best feature.  I personally have not been as appreciative of my smile, but I do smile a lot and I want to be thankful for it.  

One Jesus is my Savior and He is the reason I can smile.  Two - believers have been given the BEST gift (Paul describes it as an unspeakable gift).  Even though I am thankful I would like to correct some of my teeth, but not so much that I'm willing to go into debt.  However, if it were to be able to save the money and take care of it, I wouldn't object to it.  

This photo was taken at a party. I love how bright my smile is in this one.

This photo was taken at a VBS picnic.  

And this one was taken just a few weeks ago when I got my new glasses. I love how this shows off my happiness. I was so excited to have my new glasses. 
So ... what is another feature you are thankful that God has created you in His special way :) 

Monday, September 01, 2014

Day 1 #SeptemberThankfulChallenge

Day 1 of the #SeptemberThankfulChallenge - so excited to be able to share those things that Elohim has created in me that I'm thankful for. I know we need to appreciate who we are before others can appreciate us.  I want to be able to see myself in a different light and celebrate those things that are unique about me.  I may not have liked them my entire life, but remember I'm thinking about it in my Creator's eyes.  He created me for a purpose...He created me to enjoy Him and praise Him.  I need to remember to praise Him for how he created me uniquely.

For the first 10 days, I'm going to be focusing on physical attributes about me.  I want to be able to show there are 10 things that I have found about me that I want to praise the Lord. 

Today I want to be thankful for my eyes.  When people ask me what my favorite feature is about me...this is what I choose. I love the color of my eyes.  When I was younger, I used to hate my brown eyes.  I always wanted to have blue or even green.  As I grew older, I realized my brown eyes are not a normal brown eye. It's almost a Nestle's chocolate brown.  I have had two men who saw me with contacts and thought that they were a color contact, but I explained to them, my contacts were clear and that was my eye color that God gave me.  

Even though my eyes are not perfect vision and need the aid of glasses, I still like them and consider that they are my best feature.  And now I really like my new glasses to help with displaying my favorite feature.  I have had a lot of compliments about my new glasses, and since I think my eyes are my best new glasses bring others focus on what I consider to be my best feature.

So, what do you think your best feature is?  

Saturday, August 30, 2014

#SeptemberThanksgivingChallenge begins in 2 day!!!

I have been excited about taking the #SeptemberThanksgivingChallenge 

I have been listening to Chrystal Hurst's podcast from June.  The whole month she was celebrating life...because it was her birthday month too.  I guess since I have been listening to her celebrating that's what brought the idea of celebrating that I am fearfully & wonderfully made.  I'm so excited to share with what God is bringing into my mind while preparing for this.  

This was a rough week for me, because my focus was wrong at the beginning of the week. However, when I went to Bible study on Wednesday I was able to get my focus back on God and where it is supposed to be.  Doing this challenge I think will help me see God as the Strong Creator - Elohim. So excited to share this!

Friday, August 29, 2014

Rock Bottom - continuation on perspective

Well...this week has been a lesson on perspective.  The importance that I have found during this week is that God, the Creator of the universe, cares for little me. Why am I important to Him? Because I am His creation.  I am also a believer.  I believe on His Son, Jesus, who came to this earth as a baby, grew up as a young man, lived a sinless life while on earth, to be able to die for the sins of the world.  Why?  Because He Loves Me...and You...and EVERYONE He created.  So some may ask, if God loves us as a creation, then why does He send people to Hell?  Well, the simple answer is that He doesn't send them there...the people choose it.  What?  They choose it? Yes...they choose Hell.  

Before God created earth...Satan was an angel.  His name was Lucifer.  He thought that he deserved praise like God, so he rebelled against God.  God created Hell for Lucifer and the demons who rebelled with him.  God did not create Hell for the creation of people who came from Adam and was just for Satan and his crew of demons.  

So, when Adam and Eve were finally created on that 6th day of Creation, and God saw that everything he made was VERY GOOD.  He was satisfied.  It was perfection. However, Satan is in the picture as a rebel of God, and he knows the word of God...possibly better than the "most intellectual man who has ever lived."  That's how he tricked Eve into eating of the fruit in the Garden of Eden.  So once sin entered into the world, there was punishment for that sin.  Death.  But God...I love those words. "But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8 (NASB)  God had a plan...the plan did not change when Eve ate of the fruit.  Eve had free will.  God did not create her as a robot of His, but a person who could praise Him (because she wanted to praise Him)...out of choice.  

Since sin entered into the world at the fall of man...God's plan was to send Jesus to redeem pay the price in full.  Death is the price.  So Jesus died to pay the price.  "For the wages of sin is death..." Romans 3:23 "...but the gift of God is eternal life." The wage is death.  The gift is eternal life.  So how do we get the gift from God.  Believing Jesus' work in the cross.  Romans 10:9-10 "That if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation."  

Notice that the gift of God doesn't have any work for me to do to get it.  It's not about being a "good person."  It's confession in my mouth, and believing in my heart. Nothing more.  Why is there nothing more for me to do?  Because it's a don't work for gifts.  Ephesians 2:8-9 "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast."  There is nothing that I can do to make God love me more than He already does.  There is nothing that I can do to make God love me less than He does.  Why? Because God loved me my sin. He loved me.  He loved me enough to give His one and only Son, Jesus to be that sacrifice to pay it all!.  Jesus paid it all!

This morning, I heard a song on WalkFM by Kristian Stanfill with the Passion Team.  it was called "My Heart is Yours"

I give You my life
I give You my trust
You are my God
You are enough

My heart is Yours
My heart is Yours
Take it all
Take it all
My life in Your hands
I lay down my life 
and take up my cross
For You are my God
Whatever the cost
For You, Jesus

All to Jesus I surrender
All to You I freely give
I will ever love and trust You
In Your presence I will live

So that song brought my perspective to remembering the moment that I believed in Jesus as my Savior.  I was 13 years old.  I was raised in a pastor's home...and had heard the gospel message so many times, I could quote it to others.  What was the difference after that cold December night than the other times before...I had a head knowledge that Jesus had died on the cross.  I knew I was a sinner (trust me...I knew I wasn't perfect).  But knowing the information isn't enough...there has to be faith...believing (an action).  TI like the simple example of faith that my daddy used in Vacation Bible School one year. He took a regular folding chair. Sat it in the middle of the stage.  He said, "I know this chair can hold me if I sit in it." Head knowledge.  "I believe this chair can hold me" Still head knowledge.  It wasn't until he took the action of actually sitting in the chair and experiencing that it held him that he demonstrated faith.  he part of the song that comes from the hymn "I Surrender All" reminds me that daily, I have to surrender all to Jesus. Perspective.  I surrender the struggles I'm facing.  I surrender the doubts, thoughts, etc to Him...moment by moment.  When the stress begins to take over...I surrender. Perspective.  Get my focus back on Him. 

The quote in the picture was posted on Dr. Tony Evans Facebook.  "Sometimes God lets you hit rock bottom so you will discover that He is the Rock at the bottom." This statement has "Trust God" and "God's Got This!" all over it.  When we are feeling that we are hitting rock bottom...our perspective can be good because we know that God is our foundation. He is the solid Rock! 

Thursday, August 28, 2014

God's Got This!

What a difference perspective makes! When facing tests and trials in my life, I find that if I'm trusting God I can continue on in them with not too much of a hiccup.  But when I look directly at the circumstances that I'm facing my vision is overwhelmed by issues, and I can't think or even breathe...yet alone praise the Lord.  The past several days my focus was on my situation.  Thanks to a great bible study and wonderful family and friends in my life now my focus is on trusting God. 

I woke up this morning and getting ready for work and received a text from a good friend telling me she was praying for me and encouraging me to just "Trust God."  Do you know how sometimes you can get advice from friends or family and you think...yeah I know that's what I'm supposed to do, but you don't understand the situation.  With this friend it's not that way...she chose the phrase "Trust God" for her phrase in 2014.  So when she tells me to Trust God...she is telling me from experience that it's sometimes a struggle to do so.  

On the way to work, listening to WalkFM, I was able to hear again Matt Maher sing "You're Grace is Enough."  Praise God for that not so new song to be getting so much air play lately.  

Also before work, I received several texts from friends letting me know they were praying for me and for direction of what to do.  I'm so thankful for God using ordinary people to encourage me.  

He also gave me my brother David who sent me a song this morning.  It was beautiful, and I believe it could have been written for me in my circumstance.  "God's Whisper in Your Ear" ... beautiful! Simply beautiful!

Because I love music and listen to it a lot, God uses it to point me toward Scripture and reading the Word.  So, when I was thinking about perspective yesterday evening and today...I went to the account Peter walking the sea with Jesus. This is one of my favorite times with Peter.  I think of Peter as someone who thinks before he speaks.  He's like..."Lord, if that's really You, tell me to come out with You." He doesn't even remember that a crazy storm is happening, and when Jesus says "come on" (or as in the Jayne family we would translate this to "commawnhea" - you have to watch the Camo-plaid Revolution 2 videos from season 5 to understand that statement).  Anyway, Peter gets out of the boat and begins walking toward Jesus...his eyes are fixed on Him...until he gets a quick look around him (maybe this was something of pride - him looking at the waves thinking...look at me, I'm walking on water.) Whatever it was...Peter lost his focus and began seeing the circumstance around him.  Lost focus can cause issues with attitude.  So, as he begins to sink into the water, he looks to Jesus and again and says "Lord, help!" And Jesus reaches out His hand to take Peter's.  This reminds me of my daddy's testimony, because he talks about going forward at the invitation and saying "Lord help me, and He did"  

We can learn from Peter's experience...keep our focus on God...after all HE'S GOT THIS!

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Perspective - Glass half empty or Glass half full

Last week...My pastor preached a message on Psalm 46:1.  The beginning of the week, he preached about how we let things get in the way of our worship with God.  We sometimes will allow distractions to appear in front of Him and we let a distance come between us and God.  I went forward and prayed to confess some areas in my life that I allowed to distance me from God.  Well...that's when spiritual warfare began to heat up in my life.  

I'm a Christian.  Sometimes I'm quiet, but sometimes I'm bold.  And when I'm bold...that's when I get attacked.  Monday morning, the attacks began.  Tuesday they were strong enough for me to begin seeking employment elsewhere.  Today, PRAISE GOD, was Wednesday.  I listened Walk-FM on the way to work.  Three songs were encouragement to me - Fix My Eyes by for King and Country, Redeemed by Big Daddy Weave, and You're Grace is Enough by Matt Maher.  I was so happy to be able to walk into work for a new day, but work was even harder. But God did show me highlights in my day.  He put me on the mind of a good friend of mine, who brought me a devotional book and Frappe from McDonald's.  When I finally made it to Bible Study, I was just ready to sit there and enjoy to hear the word of God.  

God showed up. I was able to give praise for how He is going to work in the work situation I am in. I believe God brought me to my current job for a reason.  Why?  To be a witness to others.  To be bold in my faith and stance.  To be an encouragement to people.  This morning, I couldn't encourage anyone, not even myself, but I'm feeling much better.  On the way home, I heard "Word of God Speak" by Mercy Me.  

Before Bible Study I had been reading in the book "Praying Through the Names of God" by Dr. Tony Evans.  I got to "ELOHEI MA'UZZI: The GOD of my Strength"  I loved the adoration and thanksgiving part. 

Elohei Ma'uzzi, You are my strong fortress. You are the God of my strength. In You I find all that I need. In You are power, might, and force. I praise You for Your mighty hand. I lift up Your name to given You honor because of Your greatness. Your creation testifies to Your power. The mountains rise to proclaim Your strong arm. The ocean depths reveal Your force. The moon keeps its place because of Your great strength. The sun flames as a result of Your own creative prowess. You are to be held in the highest esteem, and I praise You, Elohei Ma'uzzi.

Elohei Ma'uzzi, I thank You for being strong and powerful -- and for being strong for me.  You are a personal God who desires to see me live out my destiny according to Your calling and the purpose for which You have created me.  In order to do this, I need Your strength. I don't have to juggle everything in my life on my own because You have told me that if I come to You, You will give me rest. Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light because You bear them for me.  Thank You, Elohei Ma'uzzi, that in You I find my strength.

This prayer was so encouraging to me and I'm thankful for how God has encouraged me this evening.  Yes, I may go into work tomorrow morning with the same issues, but I have a GOD, who is my REFUGE and STRENGTH.  Like the picture to the left "I may not be in an ideal situation, but I have an Ideal GOD!"

So, I'm trying to keep my perspective as a glass half full! God is BIGGER than my situation.  He is the one I can lean on...He is my REFUGE AND STRENGTH!

Friday, August 22, 2014

September Thankful Challenge

I have been reading three books lately. I normally only like to read one book at a time, but two of them I'm using as a devotional study "The Power of God's Name" and "Praying Through the Names of God" by Dr. Tony Evans.  The other one is by him and his daughter Chrystal Hurst "Kingdom Woman."  Reading these books, have gotten me to think about life and my eternal purpose.  

Recently in the news, we heard about the suicide of actor and comedian Robin Williams.  Over the next several days, people on Facebook began writing different things about how they enjoyed watching the movies he did.  Others gave sympathy statements. One of my friends who something that got me to thinking.  
If you love someone...if you love them without prejudice...tell them.  Tell them often...whether it's your child, your significant other, relative, friend or the person who makes your favorite latte at the coffee shop.  Just tell them. Depression hides and does not discriminate.  Never know when it can make a difference. (Rajan Patel)
At first it was what he wrote and how I need to be treating the people in my life, but as God began to deal with me and my own life, I realized that any one of us could be like Robin and take their own life if they don't realize the reason for our purpose.  

This brings me to the two devotional books I'm reading.  The first name we read about in those books is ELOHIM (The Strong Creator God).  The reason this is the first name we read in those books is because it's the first one in the Bible.  Genesis 1:1 "In the beginning, God (ELOHIM) created the heavens and the earth."  Dr. Evans writes

That one line at the beginning of time reveals a deep character quality of God -- Creator.  It's God's introduction, His prelude.  It's the first impression of Himself that He offers to His creation.  In essence, God says, "Hello, I am Elohim."
God is the Creator of all things...including me!  Why did He create us?  Well, the short answer is for His pleasure.  I like that too.  Some people struggle with their purpose in life. I personally like the fact that God created me for His pleasure because it assures me that God likes me.  
He put his time and energy into making me the girl who see today. Crazy, goofy, fun-loving me!  I am unique.  My identity is in Him...which  makes me a Kingdom woman (a daughter of the King.  

Pondering Raj's quote over the past several days, helped me to come up with a September Thankful Challenge.  
Yes, I know November is the Thankful Month, but God is teaching me a lesson to be Thankful for the way He created me.  A few weeks ago, I was challenged to fight the #fatdemon by Chrystal Hurst by taking the #7daychallenge on Instagram.  I was able to complete it...not 7 days, but actually 12 or 13 days.  I think I missed the last day.  I was so excited that I completed something.  Well, God has been speaking to my heart about me being Created by Him.  Psalm 139, my favorite Psalm has a few verses I would like to share.  Verses 13 & 14 "For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb.  I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well."  I believe God wants each of us to praise Him and give glory for how He created us. I believe every one He created even those children who were miscarried or have died right after birth...God has a purpose for them...and He's getting the glory out of their short lives.  I want to be able to accept this challenge and have those who follow me be my accountability.  Help me to remember to post each day about what I'm thankful for in how God created me.  You may want to join me too.  Hint! Hint!  If you do, please use the hashtag #SeptemberThankfulChallenge so I can see how you are thankful for how God created you!

God is good...all the time! All the time...God is good! Let's celebrate the life that God has given each of us and give him praise and glory for it.  

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Day 2 #7daychallenge to fight the #fatdemon

Well, day two is upon us.  It's been a great day so far with food choices.  It wasn't the best day of work, however.  Thankfully it wasn't too stressful that it messed up my food choices :)

I began the day with my Greek yogurt and a banana with water to drink.  I know that there is supposed to be a variety, but I find when I'm at work if I eat anything but Greek yogurt, I'm usually starved before lunch.  I try to make my fruit different each day to help with the variety.

For a snack, I did have some sesame sticks and blueberries.  I ended up eating my blueberries during some of my lunch too.  

For lunch I had a really great Turkey sandwich on 12 grain bread, one cucumber, grapes, peaches, and watermelon.  I drank water with lunch, but not a lot.  I still have some grapes left, because I wasn't able to eat them all with everything else. I also had part of my sandwich on the way home from work, as I didn't have time to eat it all.

For dinner I'm going to have chicken salad on multi-grain crackers (I love these crackers because they are also gluten free.  I'm not totally gluten free, but I am trying to not eat a lot of it. I do when I eat bread, but I don't always eat bread.

Monday, August 11, 2014

Day 1 - #7daychallenge (2nd time around)

It has been a pretty good day as far as my eating has gone.  I planned on breakfast and snacks for today last night.  It was good to be prepared.  And I'm gonna try that again tonight for tomorrow.  Planning is the key.

For breakfast I had Greek Yogurt (for protein), sliced peach, banana.  I drank water with this and throughout the morning. Drinking water has really helped me from snacking too much.
 For lunch, we had a drug representative to bring lunch. I was already getting stressed and didn't want to have to deal with lunch, so the provider said it was okay to do the platters or box lunches from Chick-fil-a.  I ate the sandwich and chips.  Said no to the cookie, in fact I took it out of my box so it wouldn't be tempting me.

I drank water again.  Part of my lunch time was spent running errands quickly.  So I made sure I enjoyed the sandwich so I knew I ate it.

I had forgot I brought a cucumber to eat with lunch, so I had it for snack with some black seedless grapes. I also had a half of a pickle from Jimmy Johns, but had eaten it before I got the picture of the snack.  I still have some of the grapes for dinner time too.

For dinner - or after Zumba snack, I had popcorn, two brownies with fat free organic milk and water.  Yes I had popcorn for dinner. After Zumba I don't like to eat too heavy, so I just eat popcorn, because after my workout my metabolism is higher.  So I added the brownies too.

I got my water in for the day.  It's so easy to do that when I have Zumba class. 

I was also good with points today. I used a few of my weekly points, but that's cool.

Enjoy working to fight the #fatdemon on the #7daychallenge 

Sunday, August 10, 2014


I have recently been following Chrystal Evans Hurst on Instragram. I didn't realize she had co-authored a book with her dad Dr. Tony Evans until this summer.  But since learning this info, I have been able to see what she is like by checking her Instagram page.  

I feel Chrystal could be one of my sisters.  She was raised in a christian home and her dad is a pastor too. She has struggled with her weight, and I have too!  She challenged her "followers" to take a #7daychallenge to fight the #fatdemon.  I have been involved with this challenge this past week, and the benefits have been really great.  I have been conscience about what I'm eating.  Yes, I missed taking a few of the pictures of my meals, but even though I didn't get the pictures, I still was able to make good decisions about what I was eating.  

This morning was my weigh day and I really wanted to see how well I did.  I lost 2.6 pounds and am actually on the losing side again! Yeah!  

I want to thank Chrystal for challenging us with this adventure.  I know it has helped me, and even when I went to the store tonight, I made wise choices to get healthy foods for the week.  

Please continue to pray for me on this journey, I know I need it, because it's through God's strength that I will fight the #fatdemon!